I invoke this, drowning in my velvet sea
I chose you in hopes you'd help me breathe
maybe Im too obsessive and over-protective
maybe Im too less of a shadow and smile neglective
it's deeper in your eyes I should have looked
a privileged chance I could have took
so I say
so I pretend
so I FUCKING LIE
(to myself)
so I lay
at the end
in a happy disguise
(I need help)
and sometimes I hear your seductive whispers in the air
and sometimes I close my mind and picture you standing there
and sometimes I cry with the lights off and hold your dress
wishing I could hold it all together and just forget
my vanished joy
I miss you so much
Ashley, Im sorry for us, that love wasn't enough
(so this is it)
this is me,
the little blue boy with a broken heart
(and what of then)
this was you,
my abused angel before our cracked lives fell apart
and I would wake for that stolen sunrise once more
say I LOVE YOU when you walked barefoot on the shore
remember our wedding day?
how perfect it was suppost to be
just us staring with the nightsky
wishing it more then fantasy
this is the last time I hate myself for never letting go
the fallen child of a past dream losing your hold
now Ill smile
even if it wasn't meant to be
the destined conclusion of a story sold so beautifully
I chose you in hopes you'd help me breathe
maybe Im too obsessive and over-protective
maybe Im too less of a shadow and smile neglective
it's deeper in your eyes I should have looked
a privileged chance I could have took
so I say
so I pretend
so I FUCKING LIE
(to myself)
so I lay
at the end
in a happy disguise
(I need help)
and sometimes I hear your seductive whispers in the air
and sometimes I close my mind and picture you standing there
and sometimes I cry with the lights off and hold your dress
wishing I could hold it all together and just forget
my vanished joy
I miss you so much
Ashley, Im sorry for us, that love wasn't enough
(so this is it)
this is me,
the little blue boy with a broken heart
(and what of then)
this was you,
my abused angel before our cracked lives fell apart
and I would wake for that stolen sunrise once more
say I LOVE YOU when you walked barefoot on the shore
remember our wedding day?
how perfect it was suppost to be
just us staring with the nightsky
wishing it more then fantasy
this is the last time I hate myself for never letting go
the fallen child of a past dream losing your hold
now Ill smile
even if it wasn't meant to be
the destined conclusion of a story sold so beautifully
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malice:
I am a dreamer...sometimes troublesome! 
tempest:
Gotta love the bad girls 
Ever read any Lady Daeth or Igret comics? (Igret was done by Glenn Danzig)
Ever read any Lady Daeth or Igret comics? (Igret was done by Glenn Danzig)