asia8989

I recently realized that all the boys I've dealt with lately try oddly hard to makeout/sleep with me, but none of them are at all interested in dating me. I guess this isn't lately, this is the past year.

So this guy decided at 2 am the other night to admit to me that he thinks I'm cute/hot/so forth. Then he's all if you want makeouts that fine with me. Since I actually do think he's cute after thinking about it for a while, I realizing it's been a year since I kissed someone, he's actually been nice to me for a bit, and finally while watching kill bill with him he did that horribly adorable holding me thing I decided to make out with him. And now the next day makeouts turns into a one time thing and he went from being horribly upfront to oddly quiet and aloof. If I had known it was going to be a one time thing I would never have taken all the time to assure him that I had no issue with this just being physical.

The thing that's really offputting is that if he likes talking to me, likes spending time with me, and wants to touch me why the hell wouldn't he want to date me? It's so frustrating. Sure I'm not sure if I'm ready for anything right now, but why the fuck am I not good enough?

Ok crazy bitchy woman is going to go now,
Anastasia