So now i feel like a total dumb-ass jerk wad. i posted in groups in the wrong topics, more than once in the same group. 
i was really trying to make a good impression and follow the rules but i totally screwed up. I know that the Hopefuls sometimes get trouble from and can be treated not as nice as the other people on the site so now i am just so worried that they wont want me to ever be a suicide girl, because apparently i cant read and did somethings backwards. No one has said anything about it yet, and its really not even a big deal, just a simple mistake really but now i am having these feelings of anxiety that someone will be just really nasty about it. So, I fully apologize for messing that up. I don't want to give the hopefuls a bad rep.
Well, anyway i think that now would be a good time to just get out WHY i want to be a suicide girl.
I grew up in a messed up home, family of drunken parents who were very violent toward each other. Because they were focused more on that, we were quite poor and sometimes homeless.
I always wanted to be a dancer, and a model. well, im still too poor to take on dance lessons. Even if i did take dance lessons, it could take years to be good enough, if ever, to really do anything with it.
So on to the modeling. I am only 4 foot 11, and not really fit for modeling. Suicide Girls doesn't care about that. I dont have to travel or pay anything or change myself in anyway. I can be a model, and still be me.
It really took a long time for me to accept myself for who i am. I tried to be "normal"-whatever that is, and to make myself seem like i am totally together.
Now that i am more sure of myself, and have my life together more than ever I want to pursuit my childhood dream of being a model
. In reality though, it is so much more than that. Suicide Girls are strong, Suicide Girls are not ashamed of who they are. Suicide Girls is a place for anyone who is different, or strange. In a place so full of differences and unusual people, we are all really similar. Suicide Girls makes being me normal. I am proud of who i am. At the end of the day, I have my husband, my sisters, and beautiful friendships.
i was really trying to make a good impression and follow the rules but i totally screwed up. I know that the Hopefuls sometimes get trouble from and can be treated not as nice as the other people on the site so now i am just so worried that they wont want me to ever be a suicide girl, because apparently i cant read and did somethings backwards. No one has said anything about it yet, and its really not even a big deal, just a simple mistake really but now i am having these feelings of anxiety that someone will be just really nasty about it. So, I fully apologize for messing that up. I don't want to give the hopefuls a bad rep.
Well, anyway i think that now would be a good time to just get out WHY i want to be a suicide girl.
I grew up in a messed up home, family of drunken parents who were very violent toward each other. Because they were focused more on that, we were quite poor and sometimes homeless.
I always wanted to be a dancer, and a model. well, im still too poor to take on dance lessons. Even if i did take dance lessons, it could take years to be good enough, if ever, to really do anything with it.
So on to the modeling. I am only 4 foot 11, and not really fit for modeling. Suicide Girls doesn't care about that. I dont have to travel or pay anything or change myself in anyway. I can be a model, and still be me.
It really took a long time for me to accept myself for who i am. I tried to be "normal"-whatever that is, and to make myself seem like i am totally together.
Now that i am more sure of myself, and have my life together more than ever I want to pursuit my childhood dream of being a model
. In reality though, it is so much more than that. Suicide Girls are strong, Suicide Girls are not ashamed of who they are. Suicide Girls is a place for anyone who is different, or strange. In a place so full of differences and unusual people, we are all really similar. Suicide Girls makes being me normal. I am proud of who i am. At the end of the day, I have my husband, my sisters, and beautiful friendships.
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merlowe:
I am sure you are fine about whatever happened in a group..SG members are forgiving for unintentional posting!!! And good luck on going PINK ..we all have our reasons!!
ashleyrenae:
thanks girls! 