woohoo!!! Since Im not moving now, and plans have changed for my life, Ive decided to spend some of the money I had saved up on a backpeice. Im starting with the first part to it.. a fairy sitting on a moon.. on my upper left shoulder. Its taken a while to find an artist I trust enough with my back heh.. 
But I finally have, and now its just getting the rest of it drawn up. Part of it Im sketching myself. I also have to decide what script and quote I want written on my back.. on the top of my shoulders from back to back, I want to put a quote, maybe a quote from me, or something I heard, in some handwritten script.. Im possibly going to put it in french, not sure yet though.
IN OTHER NEWS IN MY LIFE
Well, Im single, and with Valentines Day approaching rapidly, its really depressing I guess. I could do the normal cliche thing and bitch about how I hate V-day. But I know Id only be bitching because I dont have anyone to share it with. And I dont think anyone is going to pop up and woo me anytime soon. My feelings are still stuck in a spiderweb on someone else. It hurts knowing that your not wanted, especially when the person who doesn't want you, is the one you want...
I hate my job.. weeee!!! I spend all day at Godiva Chocolates selling rediculous and expensive chocolates put in little heart shaped red boxes. To my heart, working there is the equivilent of getting your head kicked while biting the curb.. fun huh?
Other than that.. I spend most of my nights on the computer.. with my kitten.. or with my best friend bronwen.. She is alot like me.. so we get along and spend lots of time together.. shitfaced.. yea.. I think Ive spend somewhere close to 200 on alcohol in the past month.. wow.. thats alot of whiskey..
I still rave occasionaly.. I dont as much as I used to by any means.. I quit with alot of the drugs too..
So now, I sit home, write poetry, watch movies.. Im sort of anti-social as of lately.. I dont know why..
I was accepted to college.. to a few..
one in st louis. one here. one in NC.. on in florida
all for fall.. I dont know where I will go.. If I will go anywhere..
Truthfully, I want to go to the school in STL.. its an awesome school.. and Im a big fan of big cities.. but im sure I know someone who probly doesn't want me there.. so thats probly a no go..
I guess I might end up back in NC.. who knows.. all this summer will be spent saving up money for college.. I have to make a decision soon though..
wherever I go.. I'll be missing the first week of class..
heh.. for Burning Man.. which is gonna rawk!
shit.. its late.. i gotta work tomorrow.. and now Im done being longwinded.. so its time to go pretend to lay down.. and attempt to sleep...
<3
ash
But I finally have, and now its just getting the rest of it drawn up. Part of it Im sketching myself. I also have to decide what script and quote I want written on my back.. on the top of my shoulders from back to back, I want to put a quote, maybe a quote from me, or something I heard, in some handwritten script.. Im possibly going to put it in french, not sure yet though.
IN OTHER NEWS IN MY LIFE
Well, Im single, and with Valentines Day approaching rapidly, its really depressing I guess. I could do the normal cliche thing and bitch about how I hate V-day. But I know Id only be bitching because I dont have anyone to share it with. And I dont think anyone is going to pop up and woo me anytime soon. My feelings are still stuck in a spiderweb on someone else. It hurts knowing that your not wanted, especially when the person who doesn't want you, is the one you want...
I hate my job.. weeee!!! I spend all day at Godiva Chocolates selling rediculous and expensive chocolates put in little heart shaped red boxes. To my heart, working there is the equivilent of getting your head kicked while biting the curb.. fun huh?
Other than that.. I spend most of my nights on the computer.. with my kitten.. or with my best friend bronwen.. She is alot like me.. so we get along and spend lots of time together.. shitfaced.. yea.. I think Ive spend somewhere close to 200 on alcohol in the past month.. wow.. thats alot of whiskey..
I still rave occasionaly.. I dont as much as I used to by any means.. I quit with alot of the drugs too..
So now, I sit home, write poetry, watch movies.. Im sort of anti-social as of lately.. I dont know why..
I was accepted to college.. to a few..
one in st louis. one here. one in NC.. on in florida
all for fall.. I dont know where I will go.. If I will go anywhere..
Truthfully, I want to go to the school in STL.. its an awesome school.. and Im a big fan of big cities.. but im sure I know someone who probly doesn't want me there.. so thats probly a no go..
I guess I might end up back in NC.. who knows.. all this summer will be spent saving up money for college.. I have to make a decision soon though..
wherever I go.. I'll be missing the first week of class..
heh.. for Burning Man.. which is gonna rawk!
shit.. its late.. i gotta work tomorrow.. and now Im done being longwinded.. so its time to go pretend to lay down.. and attempt to sleep...
<3
ash
It hurts knowing that your not wanted, especially when the person who doesn't want you, is the one you want...
You should try not to dwell on it. Think of the many people that like you. I don't know you, but I saw one of your pics in the New Pics page, and I must say you're an exceptional Beauty. Don't waste your worries on people that won't appreciate you.
Truthfully, I want to go to the school in STL.. its an awesome school.. and Im a big fan of big cities.. but im sure I know someone who probly doesn't want me there.. so thats probly a no go..
If they don't want you there, fuck em. Go anyway, if that's what you want. Unless they are the only reason you want to go, of course.