ashi

iv been wanting to see the L word for awhile and i saw the first 4 episodes today and i loved it. i'v already devloped somewhat of a crush on shayn(i think thats how u spell it), the sorta rocker lookin chick i love her hair
so... we have a new cat named eva and i lo9ve her to death! she never stops purring and she always falls asleep with me and makes me sleep all the time. i broke up with the boy a few weeks ago which was a good thing but i keep thinkin about him so much and its kinda annoying.
these past couple weeks iv been to doctors and i went to this thing for gastric bypass and im gonna do it for sure this time and no one can talk me out of it this time or scare me out of it. id rather go threw all this stuff to get the surgery than be this fat all my life. i have to take the MMPI...NUMBER 2! i think next week some time. all my friends are with me 150% and so are my parents and my aunt. im gonna break the news to my dads family on christmas and im hopin to talk to my aunt linda about it since she had it a couple years ago.
we're gonna have christmas at our house this year finally and im gonna clean the house and empress the grandparents since my cousins never clean their house for thanksgiving
im not gonna get anything for my dads side of the family this year since my grandparents are so flippin old they have everything and plus they might die soon(thats not ment to sound mean kuz they'll probly die of old age) and the cousins and their kids never get me of my parents anything and we always do so i decided to jus say fuck u and not get them anything serves them right!
i need a job so bad and no one will hire me and it makes me sad and angry kuz i need money i need to move out of my parents house... they're drivin me crazy!!!
so heres a cute ass picture of my kitty eva from tonight when she crawled up my sleave