asha_man

To be quite honest I'm tired of all this shit. I'm going to go on a little rant now, so bare with me. Every girlfriend I have ever had has cheated on me except for my last one, and she just verbally abused me to the point that I ended up building a wall around myself and became horribly defensive about everything to everybody. It took me months to pull that thing down and to start to feel normal. I don't understand why people have no respect for anyone else. Maybe in my past relationships I was too nice, which sounds like a total crock of shit to me, but I guess it can be true. Girls apparently have an innate desire to be treated like shit. Some of the nicest, prettiest, smartest girls I know are dating total douche bags that treat them like fucking garbage. Being an extremely logical person I constantly ask myself, HOW THE FUCK DOES THIS MAKE ANY SENSE!? Ive gotten to the point where I just say fuck it. As I said before, Im tired of all this. If youre looking for some tall, dark, handsome asshole then go have fun being cheated on and verbally/physically abused. If youre past that bull shit and want a nice, kind, affectionate person who will always be there for you then look around. See that friend who has been there for you through everything? Thats been a shoulder to cry on? Guess whathes the guy. But since this is real life and not a fucking 80s movie hes never going to tell you and you two will eventually go your separate ways and hell hold a candle for you for years before he realizes that the only reason he still has feelings for you is out of a distorted sense of unrequited love and you realize that he was always the right guy for you, but now its too late. Hes going to wind up cold inside and youre going to wind up a miserable trophy wife who desperately hides her tears and transgressions.