arwen11

Yesterday i went outside,
With my mama's mason jar,
Caught a lovely butterfly...
When i woke up today,
Looked in on my fairy pet,
She had withered all away,
No more sighing in her breast,
I'm sorry for what i did,
I did what my body told me to,
I didnt mean to do you harm,
Everytime i pin down what i think i want, it slips away...
Your ghost slips away..

Smell you on my hands for days,
I cant wash away your scent,
If im a dog then you're a bitch...
I guess you're as real as me,
Maybe i can live with that,
Maybe i need fantasy,
Life of chasing butterfly...
I'm sorry for what i did,
I did what my body told me to,
I didnt mean to do you harm,
everytime i pin down what i think i want it slips away...
Her ghost slips away...

I told you i would return,
When the robin makes his nest,
But i aint ever comin back.
I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry...



Well. It's 4:50 am, and i am still awake, and i'm still pissed off. Still upset and still confused.

Anyone ever just really feel like they need someone? Or i am i just a totally weak person for feeling that way? Right now i feel so lonely, i just need to be touched, and kissed and...well needed, more than anything.

I went and had a nice "relaxing" bath earlier, i lit candles, got my ipod... it was supposed to make me feel better, but it just made me feel worse cuz i kept thinking, gah i wish i had someone in here with me. Not even in the bath with me, just like to sit in there with me, talk to me or listen to me, whatever.

POO. On a FUCKING STICK.

Gah how pathetic.