I have listened to some harsh advice, yet it makes some sense. BUT, I hate it when somone gives advice without knowing the whole story. I think if someone cares that much to want to give advice and happens to have that persons phone number, give them a call and see the whole fuckin story. but anywho.
I had a really busy day at work and had a real nice night with danielle aka delores. We were in my bed cuddling watching Velvet Goldmind, by the way its a great flick, until i saw some simulated sex and thoughts came racing through my head which made me feel uncomfortable. thinking that we were there like the way we used to once before, though she might come back not wanting to.
The thing is, is that Im not confused. I know what I want and I know what makes me happy though I had to fuck it up and now im trieing to pull it together; myself and danielle and I. I can totally see a great future because we know what we did in the past that made it turbulent. she told me about some advice her friend gave her. That your first true relationship is a throw away, because you know what you want afterwards. Danielle and I already had our first throw away and we both, or atleast I know what I want. I want to try again.
anywho, I'm officially a certified mixologist and Im going to try to get myself out of the job that Im currently in. Im going to sign myself up at ASU for next semester and be done with my BFA in about two years and hopfully get done with my MFA in two.
I have been busy as all hell and currently very tired. I need to get out more, im sick of this same ol routine. I need to get out and atleast try to get my mind off of danielle while she is over in GA.
And for you who really shouldnt be stickin their words were they are not wanted without knowing what is going on: first, you say tried so hard with me and it seems like you know all what is going on, you don't. so don't put your words were they are not granted. if you really want to help me, give me a call.
she has left this morning to GA and I already want to talk to her.
I miss her and am fuckin scared
Im goin nuckin futs!!!!!!
I had a really busy day at work and had a real nice night with danielle aka delores. We were in my bed cuddling watching Velvet Goldmind, by the way its a great flick, until i saw some simulated sex and thoughts came racing through my head which made me feel uncomfortable. thinking that we were there like the way we used to once before, though she might come back not wanting to.
The thing is, is that Im not confused. I know what I want and I know what makes me happy though I had to fuck it up and now im trieing to pull it together; myself and danielle and I. I can totally see a great future because we know what we did in the past that made it turbulent. she told me about some advice her friend gave her. That your first true relationship is a throw away, because you know what you want afterwards. Danielle and I already had our first throw away and we both, or atleast I know what I want. I want to try again.
anywho, I'm officially a certified mixologist and Im going to try to get myself out of the job that Im currently in. Im going to sign myself up at ASU for next semester and be done with my BFA in about two years and hopfully get done with my MFA in two.
I have been busy as all hell and currently very tired. I need to get out more, im sick of this same ol routine. I need to get out and atleast try to get my mind off of danielle while she is over in GA.
And for you who really shouldnt be stickin their words were they are not wanted without knowing what is going on: first, you say tried so hard with me and it seems like you know all what is going on, you don't. so don't put your words were they are not granted. if you really want to help me, give me a call.
she has left this morning to GA and I already want to talk to her.
I miss her and am fuckin scared
Im goin nuckin futs!!!!!!