Sunday Aug 22, 2004

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getting over danielle is so much harder than what I thought it would be. I just got up from bed about ten minutes ago and it wasn't my intention, she's on my mind. Not seeing her or talking to her for the past two days has been nothing but torture. The only way to get somewhat of a good nights rest is drinking myself to sleep. The past couple nights have been consumed of 40s of Old English and listening to Jeff Buckley by myself in my room. I need her. Fuck! If I could step outside of myself and see myself, I would probably would beat the shit out of me for the mistake I have done. Do you remember that song that goes something along the lines of " i would walk 5000 miles and I would walk 5000 more," I think i know what this guy was going through when he wrote it. I can get up and go to work and get the job done and do the everyday gig, but when she's always on the back of my mind. when I have nothing to do it hits me how much i miss her.

on an other note, I think im going to finish school next semester. I was planning on taking a six month long trip to europe, but that doesn't really seem like its going to happen. so the next big thing is finishing school here at asu.
I start my new job in about a week and a half and my current job is feeling like its harder and harder to do. I fucking hate those snotty ass bitches. and on top of feeling like i just got run over by a cement truck, I don't have any money. this is why, my fuckin pay was cut, IN HALF! those fuckin bastards, but I'll get by. i just can't wait to get out of there.



I miss her.... frown
fedora_:
Hey there. I really appreciated your thoughts on life and just being able to talk, and I really think you are going to make it in the world either w/ Danielle as your soulmate or as really good well-weathered friends who have shared a lot. I think it is really cool you are going to be working on your art again and focusing on what makes you happy. I copied the link down for you so you can look into adopting a child also. This link has info not only on children to adopt, but all the different issues tied to adopting, the process you must go thru and Q & As you might have. Here it is:
http://www.adoptuskids.org

Anyone can register as a member, even if your dream of adopting isn't until 10 years from now. So take a look.

It was really cool to talk with you and I look forward to times in the future where we can talk again. Take care until the next time and don't be too hard on yourself. -F
fedora_:
Yeah I'd be up for a drink. Coffee or just a ice cold brew; either or. I might be going to the 80s party SGAZ is having, if you want to go to that with me, not sure what plans might be up this weekend. But a drink definitely sounds good.

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