I'm beggining to think that i have died and am being born again.
My car is back and working really well.
I just got back from my grandmas house and it seems like she is happy.
and I did something that I never thought I would have done.
in the past mmm lets say about three weeks I havent been sleeping, eating, and I have been driving myself insane. The good side of all this madness is that I have lost my love handles (woop!) and I have quit smoking weed and stop drinking, or so i thought I did. last night I knew i couldn't go to bed and so i went out and bought three 40s of Old English and came home consumed two of them while watching one of my all time favorite movie, High Fidelity. If anyone is going through a break up, WATCH THIS MOVIE, but do keep in mind it does give off a false pretense. They get back together in the end. The second hit the mattress i feel asleep, but i woke up around 4 in the fuckin morning and couldn't get back to bed, she was on my mind. I had to see her so around 7 i drove to her house knowing her mother wants to rip my throat, i don't blame her. I had to see her and i went and drove around her house a couple of times weighing the pros and cons, the fear of losing my life or a couple minutes of releif. I chose the couple minutes of relief and I cried like a baby. her mom noticed that i was there and danielle told me so i didn't stay long and waited under a tree while it was raining and waiting for her mom to go to work. My grandmother lives right down the street from her house so after i collected myself i went to her house to see how she was doing and my aunt cam by to pick me up to pick up my car from the shop and she gave me some really good words of wisdom. The jist of it is that, IT TAKES TWO PEOPLE TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP. Dont get me wrong i love her very much, but i just need to stop doing this to myself, but i do need to cut down on the eating, i think im starting to like this, j/k.
and i'm getting a job that pays more and i don't have to deal with this shit i do at my current job, snobby, rich ass, prissy, fuckin people. AND my schedule would be mon-fri and 9 to 5, that would leave me so much more time to do my art!
yup, im being born again.
My car is back and working really well.
I just got back from my grandmas house and it seems like she is happy.
and I did something that I never thought I would have done.
in the past mmm lets say about three weeks I havent been sleeping, eating, and I have been driving myself insane. The good side of all this madness is that I have lost my love handles (woop!) and I have quit smoking weed and stop drinking, or so i thought I did. last night I knew i couldn't go to bed and so i went out and bought three 40s of Old English and came home consumed two of them while watching one of my all time favorite movie, High Fidelity. If anyone is going through a break up, WATCH THIS MOVIE, but do keep in mind it does give off a false pretense. They get back together in the end. The second hit the mattress i feel asleep, but i woke up around 4 in the fuckin morning and couldn't get back to bed, she was on my mind. I had to see her so around 7 i drove to her house knowing her mother wants to rip my throat, i don't blame her. I had to see her and i went and drove around her house a couple of times weighing the pros and cons, the fear of losing my life or a couple minutes of releif. I chose the couple minutes of relief and I cried like a baby. her mom noticed that i was there and danielle told me so i didn't stay long and waited under a tree while it was raining and waiting for her mom to go to work. My grandmother lives right down the street from her house so after i collected myself i went to her house to see how she was doing and my aunt cam by to pick me up to pick up my car from the shop and she gave me some really good words of wisdom. The jist of it is that, IT TAKES TWO PEOPLE TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP. Dont get me wrong i love her very much, but i just need to stop doing this to myself, but i do need to cut down on the eating, i think im starting to like this, j/k.
and i'm getting a job that pays more and i don't have to deal with this shit i do at my current job, snobby, rich ass, prissy, fuckin people. AND my schedule would be mon-fri and 9 to 5, that would leave me so much more time to do my art!
yup, im being born again.
fedora_:
Good! I am happy that you have made a point of decision! I like positive upbeat you much better! Not that I didn't like the other side, but the upside you is really good to hear.