artslut

i never realized how bad this would hit me. I try to snap out of this depression, but all i can think is that i need her with me.

I cry every fuckin day. Im sick of this.

I know she needs time and she's going to get it, but it kills me to think she might not come back to me.

I spent almost the whole day yesterday with her and it felt so good being with her. it felt so good to hug her and be with her, it felt like we were back together again, but then I had the harsh realization that were not. this is a fuckin roller coaster and it seems like i just want to jump off.

on top of this my grandmother had her lung checked out today and its going to take about a week to find out if its cancer that she has.

i feel so exhausted from all this shit.
i hope this all ends soon.