it's hard to breathe
I feel clammy and a cold rush runnng through my hands.
something has left and probably will never return and it hurts so bad , I want it back and it was my decision to leave.
I feel like an ass and justified all at the same time.
looking back on it........ I need to look forward
I feel clammy and a cold rush runnng through my hands.
something has left and probably will never return and it hurts so bad , I want it back and it was my decision to leave.
I feel like an ass and justified all at the same time.
looking back on it........ I need to look forward
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fedora_:
I know the feeling. The whole cold eerie feeling eating up everything and making you second guess if what you are or your ideas are real. Just trying to make it. Believe me, I am the Queen of mindless dribble, the more I feel I don't belong the more I turn into a chameleon: all smiles, stupid talking about shit I don't care about, worry over who thinks what, am I dressed right, and is everyone happy, can anyone see what is really going on in my head? Everyday I have a battle with my innerself and who I portray to the world. I am so many things to so many people and I know that a heck of a lot of people out there in the world will never know me--- that is me in my mind... its okay, that is what makes each of us special I guess. Just make sure you leave some windows open so some important people who really matter to you can see in and you probably will be okay. And by the way, thanks for the sorry. 
fedora_:
Hey there, I am on usually around 6-8ish our time. I hate TV and the noise of my house around those hours. Let me know what works for you. I am home in the morinings sometimes too. Depends on what is on my itenary. I have dumb Dr. appts but other than that I am usually home. I zone a lot on the couch or with my dogs or by the pool, just reading or writing or thinking or sleeping... pretty boring huh?