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well, don't you ever feel like when you have such a great thing you are always in fear that you may lose it??????
I hate not knowing what may happen in the future. What scares me the most is that I may end up somewhere where I would hate my life and I would start to question my existence. So far I'm livin' a life of a typical twenty-one year old, I hate being typical. I have all these great dreams and I want to be there, now. I knew people in highschool who are in schools where I would only dream off being in, fucking bastards. well lets see.. I'm a full time student at a community college (regretfully), I live on my own, I'm a full time worker, and not doing a damn thing to complete my dream and that kills me, money and time is such a great virtue.
sometimes I just want to say "fuck it, fuck it all to hell!!!"
but then I realize I wouldn't really have a life worth living so then what's the use? just keep on truckin', while having the occasional panic attack.
My girl Delores had me go set up a profile on myspace.com and I wrote this journal entry and somehow I thought it didn't go through and today I logged on and to my surprise it did so there it is.
sorry for those of you have that I have neglected, I have been busy as hell, going to school full time and going to work full time is such a bitch.
I should be in bed right now sleeping, but I can't. My girl is went to the Nada Surf concert today and told me she would call me when it was over to see if she was going to spend the night, well its already like around 12:30 AM and she still hasn't called me, I'm a paranoid looney. thoughts run through my head like maybe she was in a car wreck and can't get a hold of me, or maybe she got mugged, kidnapped, chopped up in little peices and is buried in the desert, ooorrr.... she still at the show having a good time. It's at a small venue and she has a huge crush on the bassist, Daniel. errrr.. she is probably like two feet from him ready to pounce
, or maybe I just need some sleep.
help!
well, don't you ever feel like when you have such a great thing you are always in fear that you may lose it??????
I hate not knowing what may happen in the future. What scares me the most is that I may end up somewhere where I would hate my life and I would start to question my existence. So far I'm livin' a life of a typical twenty-one year old, I hate being typical. I have all these great dreams and I want to be there, now. I knew people in highschool who are in schools where I would only dream off being in, fucking bastards. well lets see.. I'm a full time student at a community college (regretfully), I live on my own, I'm a full time worker, and not doing a damn thing to complete my dream and that kills me, money and time is such a great virtue.
sometimes I just want to say "fuck it, fuck it all to hell!!!"
but then I realize I wouldn't really have a life worth living so then what's the use? just keep on truckin', while having the occasional panic attack.
My girl Delores had me go set up a profile on myspace.com and I wrote this journal entry and somehow I thought it didn't go through and today I logged on and to my surprise it did so there it is.
sorry for those of you have that I have neglected, I have been busy as hell, going to school full time and going to work full time is such a bitch.
I should be in bed right now sleeping, but I can't. My girl is went to the Nada Surf concert today and told me she would call me when it was over to see if she was going to spend the night, well its already like around 12:30 AM and she still hasn't called me, I'm a paranoid looney. thoughts run through my head like maybe she was in a car wreck and can't get a hold of me, or maybe she got mugged, kidnapped, chopped up in little peices and is buried in the desert, ooorrr.... she still at the show having a good time. It's at a small venue and she has a huge crush on the bassist, Daniel. errrr.. she is probably like two feet from him ready to pounce
, or maybe I just need some sleep.
help!
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-bobby