I feel like shit, everything is falling to peices on me right now. I just realized that this girl who I have been after can really give two shits about me, I have been putting soo much effort, emotionally, into her, days that have gone by the more and more I like her.
I really feel like she using me as a rebound, someone who can she just talk to about her recent break up with her ex and someone who can she physically fool around with. she brings me up and then leave me dry, I have got this song by radiohead in my head "high and dry." It really sucks because I bring it to her attention and she tells me what I want to hear, gggrr!!!! I seriously feel sooo drained right now, and to top it off I have so much homework to do and I can't even concentrate. why does she have to do this to me? How can someone be so self centered, she knows that I like her and BLAH!!! I think its my own damn fault, how can I let someone like that get to me.
11:00 pm
now that I anaylize whats going on in her life. Her ex was and still is abusive to her, with words. I just got back from a coffee house to contemplate and tried to do some homework and I saw a friend of mine there, she's awesome. an older woman with wisdom, she says im a mirror reflection of her, I think she's the greatest. well anyway, she said that maybe she needs to feel that she's unwanted, she wants the unatainable, and maybe through out the relationship with her previous b/f all the abuse she went through, she might need a counsler or a therapist, because she kept on coming back to him, and me on the other hand would do almost anything for her and she is not used to that. I really do care about her and I need to talk to her about that and she's even brought it up to me, about speaking to a counsler. and what pisses me off the most, that she might find an other guy that is going to treat her like shit and i would do anything in my power to make her happy.
buffalo wings and coffee don't go together.
mmm..... buffalo wings
pant. pant. pant.
done.....done.........pant......going to die......i'm done......homework........................................................................................................done.....zzzzzzzzzz
I really feel like she using me as a rebound, someone who can she just talk to about her recent break up with her ex and someone who can she physically fool around with. she brings me up and then leave me dry, I have got this song by radiohead in my head "high and dry." It really sucks because I bring it to her attention and she tells me what I want to hear, gggrr!!!! I seriously feel sooo drained right now, and to top it off I have so much homework to do and I can't even concentrate. why does she have to do this to me? How can someone be so self centered, she knows that I like her and BLAH!!! I think its my own damn fault, how can I let someone like that get to me.
11:00 pm
now that I anaylize whats going on in her life. Her ex was and still is abusive to her, with words. I just got back from a coffee house to contemplate and tried to do some homework and I saw a friend of mine there, she's awesome. an older woman with wisdom, she says im a mirror reflection of her, I think she's the greatest. well anyway, she said that maybe she needs to feel that she's unwanted, she wants the unatainable, and maybe through out the relationship with her previous b/f all the abuse she went through, she might need a counsler or a therapist, because she kept on coming back to him, and me on the other hand would do almost anything for her and she is not used to that. I really do care about her and I need to talk to her about that and she's even brought it up to me, about speaking to a counsler. and what pisses me off the most, that she might find an other guy that is going to treat her like shit and i would do anything in my power to make her happy.
buffalo wings and coffee don't go together.
mmm..... buffalo wings
pant. pant. pant.
done.....done.........pant......going to die......i'm done......homework........................................................................................................done.....zzzzzzzzzz