artslut

I had a very scary day today. well, if you have been reading my journal entires you would already know that I have been doing stackers to stay awake so I can do homeowrk because i wokkr full time and go to school full time. well last night i stayed filling out the fafsa form with my mom and I had to right a four page essay, and the stackers came in handy. at noon today after my crpay-ass critique on photo today i went to taco bell and had some tacos and off i was to my astrononmy class, as itr was a i was misreably tired and the food wasn't going to help, so I took a stacker with some tea, at first it started to kick like normal, then my heart started to pump like I just ran a freakin marathon, it felt like I was going to have a heart atack, and i stared to get realllly dizzy and I went def, i got up to leave the classroom in the middle of the lecture, so I could sit down outside, i felt miserable, i swear to god i thaught i was going to die from a heart attack and my heart was still racing. I couldn't even walk straight becaus ei was soo light headed. god i hope i don't die tonight....

i realized afterwards when my heart came down after about five hours that i can only accomplish so much, and that I shouldn't over exsert(sp?) myself, i'm throwing those damn pills away.

good-night everyone! or someone who happens to read this



I can't go to bed, to scared to, I know it may seem little juvenile, but i think thats was the closest to death that I have ever been, i'm eating right now to try to get my mind off of it and it's not helping mmmm... raisin bran.. nope not working.