you know, i need someone that i can hold and speak to, about my worrys, thoughts, ideas, everything in general, I really have no one except for you, a void that soometimes speaks back, very rarely, but there is really no way I can hold you and you would hold me back. No true physical love, I'm still searching, and yet no freakin luck, nothing but a bunch of useless booty calls. A friend tells me that I'm looking for it in the wrong places, even when the person comes to me, all it ends up is in sex, just sex. though, i don't mind it at the time of it,but it just feels redundant and empty afterwards. I know my hormones are raging and I think about sex alot (c'mon aren't I at my sexual peak?), but also i don't want to feel empty again afterwards, i don't like it.
I am lonely.....................
on an other note....
I finally got my mom to give me atleast twenty minutes of her undivided attention, whoa!!!!! I used those twenty mintes productively too, i had her help me fill out the FAFSA form, now nervousness kicks in.
now that my allergies have kicked in at full gear, my fuckin sinuses hurt and my nose hurts, my nose is like a fuckin faucet, gggrrr!!!!
I'm hungry
I am lonely.....................
on an other note....
I finally got my mom to give me atleast twenty minutes of her undivided attention, whoa!!!!! I used those twenty mintes productively too, i had her help me fill out the FAFSA form, now nervousness kicks in.
now that my allergies have kicked in at full gear, my fuckin sinuses hurt and my nose hurts, my nose is like a fuckin faucet, gggrrr!!!!
I'm hungry
as for my search for a woman, it's not entirely about a booty call. the man i am with means so very much to me and i love him madly, but he's not the soft curves and sweet touch of a woman, which i crave so very much from time to time. i have some good female friends, but not friends with benefits and that's really what i'm looking for. not just booty calls, but someone i can really get along with even if we're not having sex. my guy is truly amazing in that he supports this since he understands that he can't give me that.
i hope things get better for you. and don't search too hard. sometimes the best people come to you when you're not even looking. that's how i met my guy - i didn't want a relationship, just some booty calls...but when i met him it all changed.
keep faith that things will go well, even if it doesn't seem that way some days. trust me.