well, I got a whole lot of bad news today. I'm going to have to stop school for about two years so i can get some money out of finincial aide because I have a rich ass step-dad that won't help me out with shit! So, at the job that i am now I can make anywhere from about 35 to 40 g's a year being a manager. But there aren't any managing positions around here so they'll have to send me somewhere out of the state, hopefully somwhere cool, like portland.
on an other note, I have been trying to have an actual relationship with my mother and I don't even think shhe knows im alive, i always ask her to go out have lunch with me or simply just to hang out with me, she always stands me up, and when i try to talk to her in the house she is always on the fucking phone trying to close a deal, or arguing with my step-father, or watching tv not wanting to be bothered. I finally get her to go out to have lunch with me and i try talking to her and she GETS ON THAT FUCKIN PHONE completely ignorring my existence, so in the middle of lunch i get up and leave, she asks me if i'm going to leave her there by herslef and i tell her apparently her job is more important than me, and she was SURPRISED that I left, like what i did was out of line!
On another note, I saw this girl yesterday within this group of people at school and we had one of those moments where you look at someone intriguing and they are looking at you as well, and she smiles, her smile melted me to the ground and I probably had this stupid silly grin on my face that I couldn't take off my face, but I didn't want to ask her for her name because she was with a group of people and also because im chickin shit. I was hoping i would see her again when she's by herself, but i didn't see her after that. I kept my eye out today to see her, but she no where to be found, grr!
ooo.. aaaaa!
on an other note, I have been trying to have an actual relationship with my mother and I don't even think shhe knows im alive, i always ask her to go out have lunch with me or simply just to hang out with me, she always stands me up, and when i try to talk to her in the house she is always on the fucking phone trying to close a deal, or arguing with my step-father, or watching tv not wanting to be bothered. I finally get her to go out to have lunch with me and i try talking to her and she GETS ON THAT FUCKIN PHONE completely ignorring my existence, so in the middle of lunch i get up and leave, she asks me if i'm going to leave her there by herslef and i tell her apparently her job is more important than me, and she was SURPRISED that I left, like what i did was out of line!
On another note, I saw this girl yesterday within this group of people at school and we had one of those moments where you look at someone intriguing and they are looking at you as well, and she smiles, her smile melted me to the ground and I probably had this stupid silly grin on my face that I couldn't take off my face, but I didn't want to ask her for her name because she was with a group of people and also because im chickin shit. I was hoping i would see her again when she's by herself, but i didn't see her after that. I kept my eye out today to see her, but she no where to be found, grr!
ooo.. aaaaa!
voltaire:
at least you were honest.........