artslut

well, i started a sculpter I havent touched in about six months, it's been about two years I have been working on this thing. It's about 6:42 in the morning and my body feels like shit and I can't sleep. Maybe because I've had one to many chai's. I spent about two hundred dollars today on supplies to complete this sculpture. I can't wait till it's done, my goal is to finish it by the end of the summer and hopefully have my own show at one of the local galleries. It's been kinda hard to work because my wrist wouldn't stop bleeding because the other day I was making spaghetti and the the pot with boiling water fell all over my arms, i don't think i've ever screamed as loud as I did that day, it fucking hurt! well anyways so far the highlight of my life is my work and the discovery of Suicide girls, (mary) ha! I love it when the sun comes out in the morning, it's so calm. I was reading someones profile and she had a problem of finding the "one." she was torn between her idealistic veiws of what her soulmate should be and reality. I'm kinda stuck on the same boat, I've only been in serious relationship and it started out great for the first year then she had to cheat on me with a good friend of mine. ever since then girls to me just have been meaningless fucks! lirerally. when the hell i'm i going to find sopmeone real! I'm such a girl, a lot of guys tell me what the hell my problems is because i'm getting laid, at first it was great, now it's become redundant and boring. the ironic things is my father called me a couple of days ago and tells me he's getting a divorce, FOR THE SEVENTH TIME! And he gave me some words of wisdom, he said "Roland, don't ever get fucking married, its the worse thing you can do, it will ruin your life." lol great.