I know how you feel.

I don't expect you to ever forget. But forgiving is possible. I just really hope you aren't wasting your time. But, only you can be the judge of that.

Hope it all works out for you.

i feel i have a similar relationship with my man...

he is much more mature than me, literally and mentally. and i am so hopelessly immature and still have a mental age of a teenager.

last time we were about to break up or "just be friends" he mentioned that he felt like he was my babysitter

im just a girl trying to grow the fuck up. i am trying sO hard. sure i fucked up and put my situation where other men fucked me. i still get mad high and drunk and smoke cigarettes. he HATES that part of me.

but he is the first man who made me feel safe and taught me that making love is so much more significant and deep and beautiful than what i percieved it to be as just fucking, just a sport.

as an extention to my journal entry, my father taught me that fucking is just a sport when you get mad drunk. thats why i can't forgive him.

i am truly grateful that i met my man coz i stopped hooking coz of him. its too stupid and risky. and my life and his is priceless.

i hope your girl can respect you like that. stop hurting you and actually look you in the eye for how priceless you are. maybe she needs real help. i dunno her so... but if she can't stop you should move on. shes not the only princess out there.