Friday Sep 17, 2004 by Articca

Though I'm still really bitching, I want to thank everyone for your bad ass comments in reference to this sick, deranged dilemma I have going on in my life. You all rock! I love hearing that everyone thinks my husband is totally fucked up in the head and I'm not the only one. Lots of good advice too.
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music: Prima Donnas, Crisis- The Hallowing, Team Dresch- a mix, Crass- a mix, Fiona apple- Tidal, Tori Amos, Conflict- I.T.P., and Michael Buble and Sinatra too. This is my music selection for the day.
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Today I am sooooooooo sick. So anyways, I went back to get my shirt from my husband and I didn't start anything really. I just told him that though he denies ever having to do anything with my sister that I don't believe his lies anymore because he got her pregnant and that baby is going to come out whether he denies it or not. What a psycho. Okay so I did start something I guess when I said it was pretty white trash that he got me and her pregnant within the vicinity of 4 months. He must've thought he was so lucky when I had a miscarriage and now look what he gets and man my sister is a fucking wicked bitch so he's going to have fun with her. Karma is a bitch.
So now my sister is acting as if I'm my husband's personal secretary and sending me vicious e mails and saying she hates the two of us and that she's going to throw all his shit away and to tell him so. She's trying to make me feel guilty for having slept with my husband when I didn't know anything about this or the rest of this bullshit. I swear they are both insane. I guess he split on her when he found out and came back to me and failed to tell me anything that was going on. What a dick! He's outta here.
So, I really want to move, I honestly don't know how the hell I can live here when my sister is and having his child. I think that's going to do some serious damage if I were to stay. I love Austin though.

I was planning on moving to Portland but I just don't know yet. Talk about fucking hateful drama. Okay after this, no more bitching entrys.

So something I think is really cool is that where I work I talked to the boss and talked him into letting all the employees dress up for the entire month of October instead of just the Halloween week. I'm also allowed to wear short sleeves from now on instead of long ones I was told to wear to cover up my tattoos. So yesterday was creepy as hell. I was walking to the store and this guy follows me and drives by me real slow. I finally got to the store and I see him park. I was in there for a while so when I came out I was surprised he was still there. I walked to Subway to get food and he followed me, got out of his car and waited by the door. He was this huge fucker and more than likely in his late 40's wearing some huge hat, a gold chain, a bunch of rings, and these insanely huge sunglasses. He looked like a fucking psycho pimp. I pretended to sit down and eat my food there and then he watched for a few minutes and walked away. I left there after 10 minutes of waiting inside. I walk back to the store and I see him park behind a Hummer right where I'd have to turn the corner to walk back home. I sit in the store for a while, came out, he was still there, walked back in and saw him circle the parking lot and park in a new place, get out of his car, walked around in front of the store, got back in his car then parked again in another place. Fucking bastard! And so damn good for me cause I got a hold of my freind to come pick my ass up and when we left he was still there. Damn, I'm such a pansy girl! Hey I watch Forensic Files though and I've read PETER SOTOS book " TOTAL ABUSE." Most of the time I do carry a knife on me and some mace in case but I left a lot of that stuff in EL Paso. So now my friend told me he's going to buy me some cool shit and knives and stuff. Hell yeah. He's so nice and cool.