artax

Nothing new.. [warning.. the following is a rant.]

I'm beginning to worry that this thing with my crush won't work out..

That I'm going to lose her to some other guy..

I've played the game where I compete with other guys for the girl's attention.. I just can't fucking play it anymore. Especially when I'm ALWAYS doomed to failure. Oh well..

If she wants me, she's got me. I'm just not going to play the game where she picks him, I get hurt, shit doesn't work out for him/her and then she comes back to me.

It's happened all too many times before and I'm through with it. If I'm not worth your attention I don't want you to ever come to me looking for it.

I could be the best thing you ever had, I know that is true. or.. I could just drop everything.

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BUT.. having said that.. I do care about her. Almost more than I should.. I just don't know.. I've been getting vibes from her lately.. like I'm yesterday's news or something.. *shrug*

She makes me happy though.. and I like who I am when I talk to her..

BLAH!! This is all for now..