art_zombie

my heart races in a completely unnatural and uncomfortable way tonight.
maybe it's the bottle of wine or possibly the pain killers that killed no pain.
it's beating far too hard and I don't think it can take all my brain has to throw it's way.
I've not been to sleep yet. and I'd like to be numb again.
but now knowing I can feel again, numb just doesn't seem to be the right way to go about these types of things.
it's really my brain that's the issue. where all the chemicals are made.
my own personal batch of mental anguish.
mix some longing.
pinch of attatchment.
teaspoon of jealousy
two handfulls of loneliness
garbage bag half full of memories
three pints of physical attraction
finaly one big fat salty tear,
stir,
bottle,
consume on daily basis.
<3