art_zombie

-It's imprinted in my DNA, futile is my fight

guilt runs our world.
you're meant to feel guilty for everything you do.
guilty to have sex
guilty to drink
guilty to steal
guilty to do drugs
guilty for being apathetic
guilty to fail
it controls you.
my stomach is churning, I don't enjoy it.
I feel guilty.
I shouldn't though.
Karma will catch up with me.
but I fear karma doesn't exist.
what if I'm just here and that's all.
no devine punishment for things I've done.
no otherworldly judgement for all my so called "sins".
still though, I feel very ill and it's really "nothing".

I'm asleep
I'm desensitized, anesthetized and lobotomized
someone wake me up

.I'm unhealthy.
[a new life awaits me on the otherside]