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Hello my Lovies...

This will probably be a long blog... But before I actually get into what my blog is actually about.. I just wanted to thank you all, again for your continued love and support; it really means so much to me! <3

@lyxzen and @missy's homework this week is to write about summer, plans, favorites.. I think my favorite summers were back when I was a kid. I lived right on the beach.. and I would literally roll out of bed and walk down to the water.. To this day, the smell of salt water takes me back to being 12, sitting in my 'backyard'. I plan on spending a lot of time there this summer as well.. hunting for sharks teeth, and rescuing starfish from the break. ;) Like this guy here.. who was getting thrashed by the waves.. so I walked him back past the break to more calm water.. Of course, I had to get his picture first. Us starfish gotta stick together. ;)

My set is buried deep within MR right now, and it's still some getting love, which means that you guys rock for searching it out! <3<3 I really want to know how I can improve for my next set coming up, so if you could give me any pointers or advice, so that I may grow as a model, I truly appreciate it!

Also, we're only 10 comments away from the first drawing of the Print Giveaway I'm hosting, so go comment now for a chance to win a free *signed and personalized* print of your choice from the set!

GIVEAWAY DETAILS!!!!!
Every member who likes and leaves a comment (it must be both, so I know your username<3) on my set, their name will go into a hat. Every time my comment count hits 200, 400, 600, ect... I will pull two names from that hat. Those two members, will get to pick a photo of their choice from my photo set, and I will write a personalized message, sign it, and send it out. I want to give as many people the chance to win, but be careful not to spam my comments.. Even with love-- as that isn't fair to other girls. So get all that love in, in the one comment.❤️ ;)
For every 500 comments that I get; I'm going to answer five questions personal or not in a video, whatever you want to ask me..
So, If you can start sending me your questions; either leave them in my blog, send me a message, or you can just email me at ARSENICSUICIDE@GMAIL.COM...
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Okay... So, now for the brass tacks... ;) As of late, I've been dealing with a lot of judgments/people not understanding why or how I'm so sick all the time.. I have a lot of health issues, stemmed from being born prematurely, but not everyone knows or understands..
I have Crohn's Disease. This is an INCURABLE, invisible illness that kills people. Everyday(I've lost a few friends from this disease..). It's not just about feeling sick, or multiple bathroom trips, it is a war that is being waged on my body. Everyday, I HAVE to fight, struggle, and drag myself out of bed, or the bathroom most cases.. It's not your average disease, and certainly NOT comparable to acne-picking habits(yeah, someone did that).
Basically, a cute way of putting it:

and a more graphic way of putting it:

I hope I haven't grossed you out yet ;) This may help also.. It doesn't go into detail, but it's informational.. :)

A lot of times, people think I have the flu or something, because the symptoms look somewhat similar from an outside perspective.. I get that, "Are you sure it isn't the flu? I felt like that last week and it was just the flu." from my customers/randoms a lot... and I'm just like, "Be glad it isn't the flu. If you felt like this everyday it would be called Crohn's Disease."

I get this a lot too.. "You seemed fine earlier!" ....drives me crazy. I'm never fine. I'm always fighting... and I honestly don't know what "feeling better" actually feels like.

I'm never giving up...

Also, for those of you that wonder why I'm not on prednisone, remicade, or any other steroids:

Believe it or not... My life got easier for me when I decided to not take certain pharmaceuticals. Cannabis has helped me far far better than anything that any doctor has ever given me... and what's better? The worst side effect is hunger--but without it, I'd never have an appetite(which would make my disease so much worse).

I saw this on instagram, and while I actually don't mind educated advice or home remedies... Sometimes people think they know more than doctors.

All that aside.. I try and stay positive.. I've endured this discomfort before and survived it, so I can survive it today. I've felt these feelings before and sat with them, so I can can sit with them today. I have felt like giving in before and held onto hope, and so I can continue to hold on today. I made it through yesterday, So I can also make it through today. I can do it. I will do it. I am doing it. I am strong and I am capable, and I will not give up.

...and I can find the humor in myself, with some Dr. Who humor:

Thank you for reading through all of that. I just wanted to educate people a little bit on what I deal with every second of every day. It's important for me that I am able to talk about this. Every person you meet is struggling with something, so be nice, and understanding.. You never know who you may help or inspire.. <3

I love you all, my dearest family..

xoxo

Arsenic

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arsenic:
@wizard0 Such a true story.. :) *hugs*
dave_:
I hate that you go through all of this and there is still no cure.  Some great things you wrote along with the attachments.  Thanks for sharing this.

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