Sometimes depression is overwhelming...
My life lesson to my cousin and his friends lately has been, to start saving now. Being an adult is expensive, and brutal. Not everyone has a mommy and daddy that can bail them out if things get crazy, so it's best to prepare now. Matthew and I have bled for what we have, and it still isn't enough at times. Sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down. When you're up it's never as good as you hope it to be, and when it's down it feels like things are worse than the 'end of the world'.
So if there's something interesting that I can teach you, it's that life is short. People say that a lot, but time passes quicker than you think, and it's best to not let people or things drag you down. Expel those things or people that make you feel bad about yourself. Surround yourself with uplifting and/or successful people, people that make you feel good or successful.
I try my best to live by that... and at times I've had to cut out my own family. Anyone that knows me, knows how poisonous my mother is. I have to deal with her sometimes just so I can see my baby sister, but if I can help it, I avoid her at all costs. She just drags me down, nothing I do is ever enough and I've come to grips with that, but sometimes her words cut through and poison my thoughts for days afterwards. Especially lately now that things are really tight. I just can't seem to work enough to stay afloat. Matthew and I work so hard to keep bills paid, and I'm just so tired from constantly battling the Crohn's disease that's it's getting harder and harder to convince myself that everything will work out in the end. In all honesty, we probably shouldn't have bought annual passes to Universal, but if we didn't have some place that we could escape to every once in a while, I think we might just die.. explode.. go on a homicidal rampage.. what have you.
On a lighter note, boobs.
@matthewomen took this of me before work, while I was getting ready, yesterday.. and I shared it with a few ladies(but I wanted to share it with you too. )<3
What we learned from this photo is that TuPac isn't really dead... He lives in my TV and stares at my boobs while I get ready in the mornings. ;)
I hope everyone is well.. all my love..
xoxo
Arsenic
