wake up fuck..10:30 lay in bed...visions blurry and the alarm clock wont stop screaming obscenities to me.....roll over hit snooze.....not having it....get up ...god how much did i drink last night and where the hell is mark?...marks gone way before i wake up like anytime we drink ...glad i got to see that kid havent seen him in years...i lay in bed..sleep has me again...wake up fuck 12:40 ...phone ringing...wake up ...answer...hi mom...yea illl be at aunt cathy's..yeah yeah yeah i know where she lives...okay okay just in case ill call u for directions when i get on the road...love you too mom ...bye....lay in bed again...god dammit my phone wont stop ringing..hello? oh hey....yeah hows ur family?.....you having a good time? yeah...i miss you too....ill see you sunday love you..bye...phone away i grab my lap top and visit SG..read my old journals from a year ago and wow.. a lot has changed...some old comments bring back up salted painful wounds of my past...but ill be smoking them away in a cigarette in a minute...and that makes me laugh...i realize no ones left me a testimonial ever...whatever that is but its cool...soon im gonna get up and walk through my day...ill probably here from chris in the middle of a nice philosophical conversation ill be having...he always catches me in moments like those...and gonna go buy some stuff...its grey outside today..perfect weather for a stroll.....Peacoat, Cigarettes? Check

luciefurr:
Happy Holidays!!!


