While I'm disappointed, I cannot say that I am unhappy. In fact, I'm very happy that it is done.
My internship "terminated me" the day after I request to withdraw from my program due to discrepancies in my sites methods, lack of supervision and clique oriented teams. Basically I was getting ready to bail for poor performance on my intern sites end and they found a way to blame me.
This sadly isn't an uncommon trend for me. I try, my very best, to do the right thing. I pride myself on an enormous since of integrity. If I see something wrong, I want to correct it or at least let the person know who is responsible for that problem. If I see a patient struggling, I'll go out of my way to find why, address the issue, and follow-up. If I see someone being negligent or abusive, I call it out. Essentially I'm not one to stand by and let the bullies run the world. I'm a little guy and I root for the underdog.
I'm glad to be gone, I'm feel an enormous weight off my shoulders where I no longer need to push half-assed discharged plans, conduct half- assed groups with vague and limited notes, meet with patients who genuinely want to get better only to tell them "I don't know the details but your primary therapist will tell at you discharge". The industry is broken....
I called this out, numerous times. Called out the half-asses groups, and discharge plans that even a incredibly psychotic patient knew "dropping them off at a Wal-Mart" was a shitty discharge plan. I mentioned the private conversations behind closed doors of therapists talking down about patients and other people on the teams. I made my voice very well known. The down side to that, if you have a voice and no grounds you get the boot. that's what happened, and this is what will happen again and again for me.
I will change the industry somehow. Even if I keep moving from site to site to site. I'm not there to make friends or buddies or hook up with women. I'm there to provide a service and at the very least offer resources where available. I'm not sad that I was kicked from the site for doing the right thing. I'm sad because the people who need that voice will again, and again lose the advocacy they need to get the help they need.
This is why you see so many mental health blamed trends in the media. They don't get mental health help, they get drugs and a shitty aftercare plan than will ultimately lead to another crisis and re-evaluation which will again lead to a shitty discharge and re-eval. The circle goes on and on......
That breaks what little heart I have left for those that truly need a voice......
Please, please, please advocate for yourself or someone you need. Speak up and ask the questions nobody wants to ask. that's the only way to get the issue addressed. Period.
