armsxlikexblades

you take me for granted
as if I'll wait forever
as if I didnt have a choice

you fail to see what you're missing
but I guess that's easy to do when you fail to look at all

an attempt would be enough
even if you fell on your face trying
like I do...
over and over again

I'd meet you halfway...
if this wasnt a one way track...
built that way by you
so you can surround yourself with regret
and lock your rusted doors
pretending that it was me who pushed too hard...
when all Ive done is knock

or maybe youre buying time
hoping to meet someone who can make you feel the same
as I did in those fleeting moments
before you got scared
someone who isnt as honest
about life
about love

I wish I had the energy to sit and fight for this
but I know all to well what fighting quicksand does
how quickly it envelops you...
and drags you down
and I will not let myself drown

not this time

I deserve more than this
To be baited on your line
And collected like an old keepsake
Waiting for scraps from your table

I don't understand how to wait for something
when there's nothing there to wait for...
when youve shown me nothing but contempt
as you dance amongst my hopes
breaking the best of them
shattering them
as I gather up whats left
only to watch you take the fragments
mend them all with a single misplaced word
so you can do it all again

I can't be patient
when my patience plays me into your hands
so you can collect me
and my disappointments
like butterflies on display
flayed out and gorgeous
and you
oh so proud you caught them

When you stall
and shift
and the only calls you return
are the ones to say
not tonight...but soon

When the world you watch around you
is simple scenery for your play
and the people
faceless characters
extras hired to liven your streets
with no lines to speak of
and no hope for a starring role
all the while thinking they've been cast as the hero

You are so beautiful
So self involved
so giving
when you speak of things unreal

But that makes sense
When all you have are fantasies
And you never make a move

I caught a glimpse of you
then you hid yourself away
listing presumptions and distractions as your escape

I almost caught a shooting star
Until you tied up both my hands

I could bring you to life
If youd simply say yes
If youd only open your arms
and your eyes

I could be exactly what youre looking for
If youd only take a look
If youd only take the time

You take me for granted
As if Ill wait forever

The only things that scares me is
After all of this...

I would.