armsxlikexblades

FAREWELL

I burn in ways I know you never understood...
and I know you never could
and I'm eternally disappointed that we could not relate...
like stars reflecting lucidly in oceans of tears...
for a moment...until finally loosing their focus and form when the drops decend and violently corrupt the stillness of the waters we created

we could not explain the yearnings of our hearts
and we missed each other with haphazard words
thrown like confetti in the celebration of love
beautifully decorative
but ultimately...trash to be swept up and thrown away

we wept aloud...
each in our own way
giving up a little of ourselves
when we stitched our mouths closed
and hoped for a miracle

There wasnt much to say
When we finally parted ways
hope things go well for you
Was about the best that we could muster
and that was it...

I will wonder for the rest of my life
How deeply you can love
How much more you can give
and how close we actually came
to untying the knot we tied ourselves up with
I wonder who will be lucky enough to unlock those secret chambers of your devotion
and swim in the shallow waters of your perfection

Will that person find a piece of me there
still hanging on
old carved initials
encased by a heart
and pierced by cupid's bow
living on the trees that line your south shore

will the lessons I taught you help you love them more? I pray they do.

Will you finally give
as much as I gave
when I'd sing you to sleep
slowly stroking your hair
watching you...
dreaming for you...
buying time until the day I knew you had to leave
and making naive wishes with every kiss in the tunnels of the Bay Bridge

hoping in the hopless
holding my breath...

Our time has come and gone
Our love has lived and died
each of us are now missing small parts of ourselves that once were...
having gained parts that we never knew could be...

and we are better off for it...

and again...I sing...

"do not mourn...
that we are tired,
for other loves await us
Hate on and love through unrepining hours.
Before us lies eternity;
our souls are love,
and a continual farewell."