Bloggy blog time i think before i go to bed!
Halloween was fun, pretty much a fun week all around, guess i'll post some pictures of my costume:
Had to pull something together last minute, so just zombied up in a little army uniform.
Bonfire night was alright, went to the other halfs sisters place and watched the little fireworks with my nephew, he got so excited, it was so adorable.
This week has pretty much been dull however, all the paperwork is done for this job, although i had to go for a medical appointment as they were concerned about the self harm and sleep thing, although i haven't done it in like 9 months, and my only sleep problem is the fact i wake up at anything. I've been thinking alot on the harming front lately though, which sucks, but i haven't done it, it feels like a time bomb though, and being ngry at your fiance doesn't help. Alot of the urges come when i'm frustrated about him, not wanting sex and stuff, i don't know, we obviously have very different sex drives. Currently annoyed at him for being selfish in my eyes. Right, so he's got a booboo on his member, and said he didn't want to do anything until it had healed. This got me into an annoyed state thinking why he never has, and i mean ever, just concentrated on me with no satisfaction on his part. I do this for him, and yes, i'm still horny after, but he's never made this, well sacrifice for me, which is really bugging me. He wants to talk about it face to face apparently, over the phone or in texts wont cut it, and when i vented my feelings about this, i got a rather angry response, and he stopped texting. How does he expect me to feel about him, because i'm sure alot of people will assume that their partner is selfish for not ever having a night where they concentrate on their other half. Not sure if he;s going to ring tomorrow or what reception to expect when he comes over, but, at least i had the guts to ask him in the first place and tell him how i feel about it, even if it has pissed him off.
I wish i had some interesting things to share regarding my weekend or fun events, but i really don't, life is dull when you're on the dole. I really need to get another tatt done though, at least the matching one to the one i already have. Thing is, i'm a big wuss haha, i remember what the pain is like, and it hurt like hell on my stomach. Same reason i wont get the other nip peirced i assume, wish i could forget the pain!
I should really get more active on this site, i feel like a recluse, i mean i try and socialise, but i seem to be brushed aside and ignored alot, and i'm not sure how to remedy that. My humour doesn't work! Guess i should stick to being a blog comment whore, but sometimes that doesn't get me anywhere either, some people ignore your comment, obviously people do get alot of comments and don't reply to all which i understand, i'll have to sneak around finding people to make friends with, which i find hard on a website, i mean i read alot of SG blogs, and read about their past and find it very interesting, but i never know what to say, you know 'Nice past lol' yeah, i'll post that, hurhur. Yup, new aim, make new friends on here, and pay more attention to my current friends.
Halloween was fun, pretty much a fun week all around, guess i'll post some pictures of my costume:
Had to pull something together last minute, so just zombied up in a little army uniform.
Bonfire night was alright, went to the other halfs sisters place and watched the little fireworks with my nephew, he got so excited, it was so adorable.
This week has pretty much been dull however, all the paperwork is done for this job, although i had to go for a medical appointment as they were concerned about the self harm and sleep thing, although i haven't done it in like 9 months, and my only sleep problem is the fact i wake up at anything. I've been thinking alot on the harming front lately though, which sucks, but i haven't done it, it feels like a time bomb though, and being ngry at your fiance doesn't help. Alot of the urges come when i'm frustrated about him, not wanting sex and stuff, i don't know, we obviously have very different sex drives. Currently annoyed at him for being selfish in my eyes. Right, so he's got a booboo on his member, and said he didn't want to do anything until it had healed. This got me into an annoyed state thinking why he never has, and i mean ever, just concentrated on me with no satisfaction on his part. I do this for him, and yes, i'm still horny after, but he's never made this, well sacrifice for me, which is really bugging me. He wants to talk about it face to face apparently, over the phone or in texts wont cut it, and when i vented my feelings about this, i got a rather angry response, and he stopped texting. How does he expect me to feel about him, because i'm sure alot of people will assume that their partner is selfish for not ever having a night where they concentrate on their other half. Not sure if he;s going to ring tomorrow or what reception to expect when he comes over, but, at least i had the guts to ask him in the first place and tell him how i feel about it, even if it has pissed him off.
I wish i had some interesting things to share regarding my weekend or fun events, but i really don't, life is dull when you're on the dole. I really need to get another tatt done though, at least the matching one to the one i already have. Thing is, i'm a big wuss haha, i remember what the pain is like, and it hurt like hell on my stomach. Same reason i wont get the other nip peirced i assume, wish i could forget the pain!
I should really get more active on this site, i feel like a recluse, i mean i try and socialise, but i seem to be brushed aside and ignored alot, and i'm not sure how to remedy that. My humour doesn't work! Guess i should stick to being a blog comment whore, but sometimes that doesn't get me anywhere either, some people ignore your comment, obviously people do get alot of comments and don't reply to all which i understand, i'll have to sneak around finding people to make friends with, which i find hard on a website, i mean i read alot of SG blogs, and read about their past and find it very interesting, but i never know what to say, you know 'Nice past lol' yeah, i'll post that, hurhur. Yup, new aim, make new friends on here, and pay more attention to my current friends.
I never quite understand guys who don't like to pleasure their partners, isn't it better to give than to receive etc.