So I am really bummed sitting around this house every damn day. I NEED a job soo bad. I thought that choosing nursing as a career I would have plenty of jobs to choose from, but around here that's so not the case. Most of the family practice offices only hire medical assistants now because you can do some of the stuff LPN's do and they rather hire them because they get paid way less than a nurse. It really sucks. I did come across a job posting for OBGYN and I would so love that job working with pregnant women and giving out birth control shots, but it was posted a few months ago. It's still on the site so it must still need filled. So I applied for there. It's only part time but anything is better than not working at this point.
All of my money that I had saved up is gone and I had to borrow money from my parents for rent, which sucks. They have the money (my Dad helped pay my way through college), but I feel that now I'm a licensed nurse I should be on my own. I HATE accepting money from people out of all things. But if I didn't take the money I would be evicted and everything would be shut off. I don't know what I would do without my amazing parents, seriously.
My mom was never really the "mother" type growing up, she was never affectionate and we NEVER got along. It was almost as though she hated me and a lot of the time I thought it was something I did. But as I grew up I realized my mother does love me, she just shows it in other ways. She grew up with an alcoholic father and my gram was a nurse always working, so my mother was the one to do all the household work and take care of her younger sister, while her older brother was out doing drugs and partying. Her family never taught her how to be a mother because they were very unaffectionate. I'm just glad that I grew the fuck up and realized how much my mom really does do for me. She really does try, I just wish she would tell me she loves me and would spend more time with me. The only time she does is when she comes to see my daughter.
But back to the job issues... I've applied at so many places. There is a job I have a good chance of getting and already had an interview but they aren't hiring for another month because they opened a new office in Somerset and a few employees are transferring. And honestly, I can't afford to wait another month. I need a job this month so I can pay my bills next month. My car needs a new battery, an oil change, new brakes and it needs aligned. And it really sucks because I just bought this car recently and paid over $10,000 for it and it's giving me so many problems. Now the warantee is up so they won't pay to fix the alignment or any of the other problems. I love my car, don't get me wrong but damn do I need money. My boyfriend always tries to give me money to help with bills and always wants to pay for everything when we go anywhere and I hate that. I do not accept money from others. My last boyfriend tried to pay for my $180 meds for my acid reflux every month because my insurance wouldn't cover it. But my pride gets in the way. And a lot of the guys I date have money (well their parents' money) and they have access to it. I don't want people thinking I'm a damn gold digger, that's the main reason I don't accept money. I'm an adult now and have a daughter to raise and shouldn't have to depend on others. I swore I would NEVER work in a nursing home because I get way too attached and it's hard ass work getting them to take their pills and doing their wound care because most of them have dementia/alzheimer's and are very uncooperative. But it looks like I'm about to apply at the home that's 3 minutes from my house because beggers can't be choosers. And at least it will be something until something better comes along. I just don't want to work the overnight shifts, because I don't have a babysitter for my daughter. And you can't just do morning shifts because in the nursing homes they mix it all up. You get, what they assign you each day. The State Prison is where I really want to work, but I have to get some money to go take my civil service test. I just wish they were a lot closer to where I live because it would suck in the winter driving to those places. The roads I'd have to drive get really bad. But the money is great and it's a state job. I just hope I can figure it out soon.
All of my money that I had saved up is gone and I had to borrow money from my parents for rent, which sucks. They have the money (my Dad helped pay my way through college), but I feel that now I'm a licensed nurse I should be on my own. I HATE accepting money from people out of all things. But if I didn't take the money I would be evicted and everything would be shut off. I don't know what I would do without my amazing parents, seriously.
My mom was never really the "mother" type growing up, she was never affectionate and we NEVER got along. It was almost as though she hated me and a lot of the time I thought it was something I did. But as I grew up I realized my mother does love me, she just shows it in other ways. She grew up with an alcoholic father and my gram was a nurse always working, so my mother was the one to do all the household work and take care of her younger sister, while her older brother was out doing drugs and partying. Her family never taught her how to be a mother because they were very unaffectionate. I'm just glad that I grew the fuck up and realized how much my mom really does do for me. She really does try, I just wish she would tell me she loves me and would spend more time with me. The only time she does is when she comes to see my daughter.
But back to the job issues... I've applied at so many places. There is a job I have a good chance of getting and already had an interview but they aren't hiring for another month because they opened a new office in Somerset and a few employees are transferring. And honestly, I can't afford to wait another month. I need a job this month so I can pay my bills next month. My car needs a new battery, an oil change, new brakes and it needs aligned. And it really sucks because I just bought this car recently and paid over $10,000 for it and it's giving me so many problems. Now the warantee is up so they won't pay to fix the alignment or any of the other problems. I love my car, don't get me wrong but damn do I need money. My boyfriend always tries to give me money to help with bills and always wants to pay for everything when we go anywhere and I hate that. I do not accept money from others. My last boyfriend tried to pay for my $180 meds for my acid reflux every month because my insurance wouldn't cover it. But my pride gets in the way. And a lot of the guys I date have money (well their parents' money) and they have access to it. I don't want people thinking I'm a damn gold digger, that's the main reason I don't accept money. I'm an adult now and have a daughter to raise and shouldn't have to depend on others. I swore I would NEVER work in a nursing home because I get way too attached and it's hard ass work getting them to take their pills and doing their wound care because most of them have dementia/alzheimer's and are very uncooperative. But it looks like I'm about to apply at the home that's 3 minutes from my house because beggers can't be choosers. And at least it will be something until something better comes along. I just don't want to work the overnight shifts, because I don't have a babysitter for my daughter. And you can't just do morning shifts because in the nursing homes they mix it all up. You get, what they assign you each day. The State Prison is where I really want to work, but I have to get some money to go take my civil service test. I just wish they were a lot closer to where I live because it would suck in the winter driving to those places. The roads I'd have to drive get really bad. But the money is great and it's a state job. I just hope I can figure it out soon.
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gidgette:
there is a prison in somerset
hockey1:
happy birthday