okay, first I want to mention that I love love Siren's back bodice play piercings from the 'heaven' set.
philly was super-lovely. even though it was cold and rainy and I lost much boy-time due to incessant 'help my computer has X virus' calls to him. We played one of those 'how to host a murder' games, which was very entertaining.
Now am back in c'ville, worrying about gre's and post-graduate decision-making, as usual. someone tell me what I should do next in my life, please!
Last night I was out with a bunch of people at a restaurant, and one of the guys there made a completely false, insulting, accusatory comment in front of everyone about my 'standing him up' last week. I did not get to respond to him in person, but I've been angry and frustrated ever since. I *never* say what I want to say to a person's face when I have the chance - I always instead replay what I should have said over and over in my head for days afterwards. It's not worth it to me to actually confront him now, since the issue was petty, but I get irritated with myself for not reacting honestly, and shrugging things off in public every time. Confrontations are difficult for me since I always feel like I've done something wrong, even when that's not the case. Someone is pissed off at me=I am necessarily in the wrong. Stupid guilt math.
fortunately, tomorrow is friday and my supervisor is cooking a lavish 4 course meal for most of us tomorrow night at his house. mmm. food.
philly was super-lovely. even though it was cold and rainy and I lost much boy-time due to incessant 'help my computer has X virus' calls to him. We played one of those 'how to host a murder' games, which was very entertaining.
Now am back in c'ville, worrying about gre's and post-graduate decision-making, as usual. someone tell me what I should do next in my life, please!
Last night I was out with a bunch of people at a restaurant, and one of the guys there made a completely false, insulting, accusatory comment in front of everyone about my 'standing him up' last week. I did not get to respond to him in person, but I've been angry and frustrated ever since. I *never* say what I want to say to a person's face when I have the chance - I always instead replay what I should have said over and over in my head for days afterwards. It's not worth it to me to actually confront him now, since the issue was petty, but I get irritated with myself for not reacting honestly, and shrugging things off in public every time. Confrontations are difficult for me since I always feel like I've done something wrong, even when that's not the case. Someone is pissed off at me=I am necessarily in the wrong. Stupid guilt math.
fortunately, tomorrow is friday and my supervisor is cooking a lavish 4 course meal for most of us tomorrow night at his house. mmm. food.
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as for life advice, i say get into grad school and stay there forever. that's my current plan
man i really miss charlottesville!