So I'm spending the weekend at Nick's house. A couple of my grandma's sisters flew down on Thursday and they are staying til Tuesday. Needless to say our three bedroom apartment is a bit cramped so I left.
So since Wednesday....
After leaving the library Nick and I went to Condom Sense, the local toy store.
I got my first vibrator there. Scary! When I'm back home and have internet I'll tell you more about it. But it looks like a penis and it's squishy.
So anyways I spent yesterday showing the aunts Fort Worth. Ugh, they can be just as bad as my grandma. Anyways it was quite the ordeal and I came home really stressed out. So I came here to get away from it.
Nick decided to take pics of me last night to see how well I posed. But when he uploaded the pics to his comp and I saw them,.. ick. I looked horrible! The body image I had in my head is completely different. Seeing the pics made me feel really ugly.
Perhaps it was just the lighting but I definitely think I'm gonna go work out.
Then this morning my mom called to say that my grandpa was in a lot of pain so they had taken him to the cancer center. The cancer center sent him to the hospital where he's gonna stay til Monday. So he's finally gonna get the kind of pain medicine he needs and they'll make sure he eats. He hadn't really been eating very well and he's been adamently refusing to go to the hospital insisting that he wqasn't in that much pain even though he's constantly cringing.
Anyways, I'm sure y'all might like to get an idea of what I look like. Now there aren't the best pics or even the most recent but hopefully I'll have better soon.
This one is actually my senior pic, it's 3 or 4 years old.
And this was done by Nick, it's not more than a year old.
So there you go, some small idea of what I look like. Mind you I'm posting them in my journal cause I'd never officially submit them in my application cause I hate them. Except my senior pic but that's really old.
So since Wednesday....
After leaving the library Nick and I went to Condom Sense, the local toy store.
I got my first vibrator there. Scary! When I'm back home and have internet I'll tell you more about it. But it looks like a penis and it's squishy.
So anyways I spent yesterday showing the aunts Fort Worth. Ugh, they can be just as bad as my grandma. Anyways it was quite the ordeal and I came home really stressed out. So I came here to get away from it.
Nick decided to take pics of me last night to see how well I posed. But when he uploaded the pics to his comp and I saw them,.. ick. I looked horrible! The body image I had in my head is completely different. Seeing the pics made me feel really ugly.
Perhaps it was just the lighting but I definitely think I'm gonna go work out.
Then this morning my mom called to say that my grandpa was in a lot of pain so they had taken him to the cancer center. The cancer center sent him to the hospital where he's gonna stay til Monday. So he's finally gonna get the kind of pain medicine he needs and they'll make sure he eats. He hadn't really been eating very well and he's been adamently refusing to go to the hospital insisting that he wqasn't in that much pain even though he's constantly cringing.
Anyways, I'm sure y'all might like to get an idea of what I look like. Now there aren't the best pics or even the most recent but hopefully I'll have better soon.
This one is actually my senior pic, it's 3 or 4 years old.
And this was done by Nick, it's not more than a year old.
So there you go, some small idea of what I look like. Mind you I'm posting them in my journal cause I'd never officially submit them in my application cause I hate them. Except my senior pic but that's really old.