First I want to apologize to my friends on here, especially the ones that I had been following the most:
@ainoa @lillymaee @scarlettxx @aobh @sylo @ivylina @lilymai @rousse @bitterblue @meera @kitten__ @janinekittyb @august_ (so confused by the name change altkitty, I thought you left too) @aurorer @chefbeth
for not being on here as much and supporting you all.
Second, the reason or reasons that I have been gone for so long is due to personal illnesses and health scares.
I almost passed out while I was working back in Oct. Which ended up with the doctors finding an anomly in a CT scan. They were unsure about an odd looking mass that they found in my brain, concerned it might be cancer or due to the symptoms that took me to the ER a possible anuerism . Ended up having an MRI & MRA to determine that the mass was actually just a normal artery that had branched off unusually. Still going through cancer checks as my white blood count is still elevated beyond it normal elevation levels.
Towards the end of November, I was admitted again due to severe bronchitis, which was starting to turn to pnuemonia. That's all for the health reasons.
I have also been fighting a really bad depression. A major trigger was the suicide of a friend of mine that had always been the one who talked me down before in the past as well as the one who took me to the hospital back in '92 when I attempted suicide myself. I still feel real shitty that he did not reach out to me and I had not been so good lately about staying in touch with him. I feel like I wasn't there for him when he needed me the most.
I promised over the next week I will be trying to catch up on all of your blogs.
I hope that you all have a very Happy Holiday season with your families. :)
