Lousy, lousy sales week this week. New scripts, which are a pain in the ass because you have to memorize tham and try to sound like you're not reading from a script, and I've never been able to master that. I cannot stand schmoozing, being fake in conversation. At any rate, it's becoming quite clear to me that my job may come to an end sometime in the next week or two unless I can get and keep my sales up to at least four per day. I had to miss work Wednesday because I was throwing up (warning to all: never eat anything from McDonald's, especially if it's been sitting in a fridge for a couple of days), and with the fucked up changes that just threw everyone off their game this week except for a few folks yesterday...
Well, let's just say I'm not cut out to be a telemarketer. My heart just isn't in it, trying to push something on people when the fact of the matter is all I really care about is keeping my job so I can not be broke and unable to pay the bills. It's got to be more than that for me, I've got to truly enjoy what I'm doing. And I'm not truly enjoying this job.
I actually had that to some degree when I was working at Boston Market. Yeah, the pay was shit, the hours erratic, the boss an asshole and the benefits non-existent. And coming home reeking of raw chicken was a terrible, terrible drag on my life in more ways than one. But I enjoyed working with a lot of the other people who worked there and I enjoyed working with the customers. And to be honest, they still make the best damned fast food I ever tasted.
What I really want to do with my life is to write, and to own my own comic book store again (I had part ownership in one in 2002), and also to maybe someday run for a paid political office. That's what I want to do with my life at this moment in time. My heart is called to by these, It's what I'm fairly confident will bring me satisfaction in life. Also, I'd like to travel the world.
But, none of that will happen without a higher education than what I currently have (I didn't finish college, tuition was too expensive and I wasn't eligible for financial aid, fucking state laws; Ohio sucks at education funding). Nobody that pays any real wages hires you anymore unless you have some sort of college degree, a bachelor's degree at minimum.
And so I'm caught in a vicious cycle; I can't really get a decent-paying job unless I get my degree, but I can't get that degree without a decent-paying job. This coming week I am going to try applying for a grant to go back to school. So we'll see what happens.
Well, let's just say I'm not cut out to be a telemarketer. My heart just isn't in it, trying to push something on people when the fact of the matter is all I really care about is keeping my job so I can not be broke and unable to pay the bills. It's got to be more than that for me, I've got to truly enjoy what I'm doing. And I'm not truly enjoying this job.
I actually had that to some degree when I was working at Boston Market. Yeah, the pay was shit, the hours erratic, the boss an asshole and the benefits non-existent. And coming home reeking of raw chicken was a terrible, terrible drag on my life in more ways than one. But I enjoyed working with a lot of the other people who worked there and I enjoyed working with the customers. And to be honest, they still make the best damned fast food I ever tasted.
What I really want to do with my life is to write, and to own my own comic book store again (I had part ownership in one in 2002), and also to maybe someday run for a paid political office. That's what I want to do with my life at this moment in time. My heart is called to by these, It's what I'm fairly confident will bring me satisfaction in life. Also, I'd like to travel the world.
But, none of that will happen without a higher education than what I currently have (I didn't finish college, tuition was too expensive and I wasn't eligible for financial aid, fucking state laws; Ohio sucks at education funding). Nobody that pays any real wages hires you anymore unless you have some sort of college degree, a bachelor's degree at minimum.
And so I'm caught in a vicious cycle; I can't really get a decent-paying job unless I get my degree, but I can't get that degree without a decent-paying job. This coming week I am going to try applying for a grant to go back to school. So we'll see what happens.