I made it a point not to make any concrete ones.
Ones that I would feel stress over.
Ones that I would allow myself to feel guilty over, if I wasn't actively working on reaching every day.
And most detrimental of all...
Ones I would feel shame over, if I didn't achieve.
Nothing fuels self hatred quite like stress, guilt, and shame, and you know what...
I have no room for those little bastards in my life anymore.
Point blank.
Period.
So good bye to all that. Cheers!
What I decided to do this year was plan on adding more and more activities into my life that I enjoy and make me feel great about myself.
That way my attempts at doing those things are what matter, not all the times that I don't. I can feel good when I make an effort... when I try... and I don't feel like I have to beat myself up to a pulp on the inside when I don't...or I can't... or just I don't f'ing want to.
Despite the state of current world affairs... I am so excited for this year.
I will have at least 4 sets coming to SG this year. Hoping to push it to 5.
I just started a book club that officially starts today 1/26/22, and meets Tuesdays at 6:30pm pst on zoom. Super small right now but hoping it grows. (Interested in joining? Message me!)
I also hope to compete in a pole competition by the end of the year. I never desired to before, but I feel rather blah at the pole studio I go to. I used to be there every other day, but now my attendance is down to once a week...if I'm lucky. I think I'm just bored...and I've been bored for quite some time now.
On top of that I am currently taking a beginners language course on Nahuatl. It's been about 2 weeks now, and I am absolutely in LOVE with it. I hope to connect with people who also speak it, so that I may continue my learning, and eventually become fluent and teach it to family and friends.
I'm also looking to expand my close social circle. I feel that I am finally at a point in my life that I can handle allowing people to get to know me on a deeper level, and strong enough to handle the sting of rejection if they decide they don't want to stay in my life. (Inner growth baby! It's wonderful)
.....
And this one.
This one's just a thought.
An idea.
Perhaps a dream from my childhood that has recently been resurfacing.
I used to write.
I used to write a lot of things...but I loved writing poetry.
I wanted to publish a book full of my work, but once I became an adult...
I stopped writing.
It's unfortunate really.
I just started jotting some musings down again. Nothing good, but it feels so right.
So yes...I hope to make writing my THING again.
Poetry...
and maybe start writing some articles and see if anyone takes them.
Who knows....but I do know this... my world is getting bigger and more beautiful as the days go by.
Love you SG Land! Xoxo
@missy @penny @lemon
