aralia

watched Grosse Pointe Blank. I love John Cusack

I feel a strange sort of heartache tonight. Maybe it's because its late. Maybe its because i watched a movie with a happy sweet ending. Maybe it's because the person i originally watched that movie with was the person who broke my heart, which has never quite mended. Maybe it is just a meloncholy induced by all the simple shortcomings of life (slacking on homework, not having a job, etc.)

Or maybe i just miss J. It is so weird how easily i miss him. I only saw him this morning, after all. Some call this feeling love, some call it dependence I call it, being happier when I'm with him than i am without, and thats all i really need to know about that.

When they make a movie about my life, i want J to be played by John Cusack. heh heh.