aralia

So. . . Friday eve. and Saturday J and i mostly just fought. it was difficult and exhausting and unpleasant. We almost didn't want to go to the party last night because of being so wiped out from fighting all weekend.

But going to the party made everything okay again. J and I had ginger ales with vodka and lime juice. My friend gave me brownies for my birthday and gave me a spur-of-the-moment haircut. J and I got feeling good again and spent some time laying on our friend's bed together and talking. Then he made a very direct suggestion so we went outside under the full moon. It was great. Even had the Cruxshadows and the Cure playing. Then we went back inside and there was much happiness and socializing, while i had a tequila shot and we waited for J to sober up enuf to drive us home.

So despite it all, i woke up this morning with a smile on my face.