It has been a tough and challenging journey...making my voice heard in the music industry. I keep falling, cry for a moment, dust myself off, and get up just to do it all over again. Today, I am hopeful. Some days I want to commit suicide! AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!
In the beginning of this project, I was sooooo determined to make this an all female post rock, punk and 80's influenced band. I started running ads and took it from there. Putting a band together in the 90's was a bit less difficult. Nowadays, people have no interest in helping you bake cookies. People seem to be interested in stuffing their fucking faces when the cookies are hot out of the oven! Bastards! At the same time...I knew exactly what I was getting into.
I knew from the beginning, an all female rock band is like finding a needle in a hay stack! Sure, I might find my bitches...but they may be just that... Honies that are hot, but can't play very well. Honies that can only stand around looking hot all fucking day. I want chics who can rock as good as, if not better than the guys! I want chics to play with whose feelings aren't easily hurt. You have to have a heart of stone in this business. You have to be able to focus on just creating, not your EGO! I don't want to be cute, like the Donnas...I want to be really awesome! And I write my own songs too!
It seem as if all the fierce girls who are talented are allready tied up. Damn! Even Beyonce has an all female band...and her bassist fucking rips! Well....she IS Beyonce after all.
I have not lost hope of having at least one other female to create sick music with. Over time, I have become open to whatever awsome talent that expresses interest in being a part of this. Putting a band together is so much like dating, having a lover, boy/girlfriend, or even being married. Some days, my heart is so broken when I have hit a brick wall. Other days, I feel so creative and free.
Here is a picture of me posing for Steve Prue (A.K.A TMRonin) at my studio (Fluid Production) in Butler NJ. My producer, Marc (A.K.A the Fluu) said he has never seen the vocal booth look so good. Thank you Steve!
Ultimately my music is my whole being. It is my spiritual fix. Music has outlasted many people that have come in and out of my life. Music has healed me when I was so broken, I thought I was unfixable. Being in the vocal booth is so much more intimate than the greatest sex I have ever had. It is when I am the most naked. When I am incomplete, it makes me whole.
The most depressing thing is the amount of offers I have been getting to perform. Problem is...I have no band. I have songs, and no frelling band! AAAARRRRRGGGGHHH!
BYE BYE 'BITE ME GIRLS'....ARAENA HAS GONE....PERHAPS SOLO?....and so the plot thickens...
In the beginning of this project, I was sooooo determined to make this an all female post rock, punk and 80's influenced band. I started running ads and took it from there. Putting a band together in the 90's was a bit less difficult. Nowadays, people have no interest in helping you bake cookies. People seem to be interested in stuffing their fucking faces when the cookies are hot out of the oven! Bastards! At the same time...I knew exactly what I was getting into.
I knew from the beginning, an all female rock band is like finding a needle in a hay stack! Sure, I might find my bitches...but they may be just that... Honies that are hot, but can't play very well. Honies that can only stand around looking hot all fucking day. I want chics who can rock as good as, if not better than the guys! I want chics to play with whose feelings aren't easily hurt. You have to have a heart of stone in this business. You have to be able to focus on just creating, not your EGO! I don't want to be cute, like the Donnas...I want to be really awesome! And I write my own songs too!
It seem as if all the fierce girls who are talented are allready tied up. Damn! Even Beyonce has an all female band...and her bassist fucking rips! Well....she IS Beyonce after all.
I have not lost hope of having at least one other female to create sick music with. Over time, I have become open to whatever awsome talent that expresses interest in being a part of this. Putting a band together is so much like dating, having a lover, boy/girlfriend, or even being married. Some days, my heart is so broken when I have hit a brick wall. Other days, I feel so creative and free.
Here is a picture of me posing for Steve Prue (A.K.A TMRonin) at my studio (Fluid Production) in Butler NJ. My producer, Marc (A.K.A the Fluu) said he has never seen the vocal booth look so good. Thank you Steve!
Ultimately my music is my whole being. It is my spiritual fix. Music has outlasted many people that have come in and out of my life. Music has healed me when I was so broken, I thought I was unfixable. Being in the vocal booth is so much more intimate than the greatest sex I have ever had. It is when I am the most naked. When I am incomplete, it makes me whole.
The most depressing thing is the amount of offers I have been getting to perform. Problem is...I have no band. I have songs, and no frelling band! AAAARRRRRGGGGHHH!
BYE BYE 'BITE ME GIRLS'....ARAENA HAS GONE....PERHAPS SOLO?....and so the plot thickens...
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I don't now why, but lately I've been reading about girls with band~member~problems a lot, especially here on SG. And it's like they are all little puzzle pieces that would function beautifully together, but to add insult to injury, they're scattered all over the world.
Mean.