arachnea

My ex.

I laugh on the inside right now, even though parts of me are saying that a year ago I would have been crying on the outside.

I am a stronger person now and I am so very deeply happy that I am not with this man anymore, I don't think any of you have any idea.

I would cry myself to sleep almost every night, through blind love of this man while we were dating, not being able to deal with the shit that he put me through.

You know what? I may be schizophrenic. I may be on disability right now. But you know what guys? I'm okay with that because I'm not with him. He was a cancerous poison on my life and my current boyfriend is just so absolutely wonderful, I can't begin to explain things to you guys.

This man impregnated me, ordered me to abort, and alas I had a miscarriage instead.

Seeing him today just put all of my thoughts into concrete. I do not love him anymore. I am so happy I am not with him. My life is all the better for it.

Yes, I have things that I am dealing with. Like my mental illness, as mentioned above (as well as the sexual assault that actually happened in February that a lot of you guys don't know about)

I love my boyfriend and that has to be said. I am happy with the direction my life is going right now. And I am happy to have had the strength to walk away from such a horrible person.

I think I may have moved onto a whole new stage of my life right now.