aqsnow

so the summer for me always represents a time with not very much to do. i am sitting here, working my summer job, and trying to figure out how to communicate with the girl I am crazy about. the story of her is as follows:

2 years ago I met her, and fell in love with her, but forced her out of my life completely, deleted her from my myspace, stopped talking to her on aim, deleted her phone number and stopped answering her calls, until her calls stopped. I did this because I didn't want to lose the stability of the girl I was with... I immediately regretted this decision and began searching for her now 2 years later after not speaking for that whole time a friend of mine brought her back to me (in February) we have been writing back and forth on myspace and aim (when she is on) and recently she has gotten a lot worse at reading and replying to the messages I send her... I don't know what to do so as usual any advice would be nice.

anyways back to the summer. i am working at a boat yard - cleaning boats for a charter company - it is rewarding, but at the same time completely disheartening, because someone will charter the boat - get it all dirty, and then i have to clean it again, i feel kind of like a hotel maid.

hope everyone is doing well.