apsis

Funny how things turn- now that I was looking full on she was feeling lonely... Far be it from me to pull back and take care of someone who I care about- guess I am a sucker that way- so I stop and care. Maybe things will work out (to what I ask?)- Maybe I will get to where I wanted to be- transcending this mis-belief system that one's monogamy- even the big "M"- is only a place holder for one to surpass (rather than compromise) the blocks to reach one's true nature. It seems so base- but aside from kidding oneself "Yeah this is right for me" there is actually a place and a means to evolve relationships in general. The seed of most everyone's nature is to have many relations- Promiscuousnesses is what we desire- it is the connotation that we avoid (Is there a good word for it?) If it weren't for so many hang-ups and the fear of disease and the moral corruption most organized religion CAUSES rather than heals- maybe we would be more 'pagan' and less 'xian' (BTW The Idea of Christ and what he did I like- It is the organization of religion which has corrupted the ideals.)
So Should I wander into that vast uncomfortable bit of being in an 'open' relationship or see it for what it is and cut myself loose before I am shat upon? Time will tell. For now- I am trusting she isn't doing this to rake me over the coals. (Keeping my fingers crossed)

In the meantime I plan on taking advantage and LIVING as much as possible. Just need help on figure out where to start (and which tattoo to look at- the piercing(s) I think I have figured out already).

(Stina- you available for a session? How much and where can I see your work?)

R.