I am so sick of people who act like they care about me and yet are so quick to assume something negative about me despite me never once giving them any reason to. These people know how mentally and emotionally fragile I am currently as well. I've done nothing but be as supportive as I can be for the entire time I've followed them, I make one comment they take the wrong way (and trust me there was nothing ambiguous or wrong with the comment whatsoever) and they call me rude, negative, hateful, weird, creepy, etc.. Like what the fuck did I do to deserve all that? Like I'm over here now having disturbing thoughts and severe chest pain because of all the stress and everything else just because you couldn't give me the benefit of the fucking doubt or even ask me politely first what I meant before making assumptions. I'm getting so tired of apologizing to people constantly too when I know I did nothing wrong but I still feel guilty and am scared or pushing people away.
Seriously, the very, very few people who have genuinely reached out to me (of their own accord) and showed understanding and kindness and given me a chance to explain rather than just attack me for their wrong assumptions... Those people are the only ones keeping me going but I feel so guilty for burdening them.
Some of you really have no idea just how much you affect someone and how sometimes just an extra ounce of kindness and consideration can literally save someone's life.
