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For those who don't know I just spent the last four days in a hospital bed. My blood sugar was over 500 and cholesterol was so bad it caused pancreatitis which is an inflammation of the pancreas and diabetic ketoacidosis. Before going to the hospital Thursday I had been laying in bed since Monday in extreme back and abdominal pain, barely able to eat. I...
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caraphernelia:
hope you're gonna be okay :(
apropoetic:
@pimenta @caraphernelia I really appreciate the concern. I don't know if I'll be okay to be honest. As sad as it sounds, I dislike myself too much to fix the things that are killing me.
The way people are is breaking me. I can't seem to survive in the real world and it seems like people don't want me in the digital one either. I have tried so so hard to be positive towards others despite having such a resounding hatred of myself and yet to so many people that never seemed to matter. I have been accused of so...
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So... along with the numerous health and financial issues I've been dealing with for quite some time, things still seem to get worse. I was wavering about quitting my job for my health and I knew they likely wouldn't keep me much longer, but changed my mind and decided I'd keep trying. The very day I decided that, which was Monday March 28th, I was...
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Everything hurts in this world and there's no joy to be had. I hope that's just the case for me.
cardinalfire:
Dude, it's hard though sometimes you got to try and look for the what good there is or try and make some changes. Like the song says 'everybody hurts' at some point or another. Did you see she retweeted you? That video was so funny. Take easy, don't give up entirely. See you next time in chat.
The blog title sums it up so well.
So many of you women have no idea the godly power you wield, or could wield if you only knew you had it all along. Each woman has her own traits and skills at her disposal. I may come off a little shallow here, but you have to know physical beauty is one of them. I as...
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mortis322:
Yup! You summed it up greatly.
Reached 28 without a date and it's too late to start.
Relegated to my fate, an unbroken but empty heart.
fresa:
Same :/ I hope things look up for you soon!
I'm not at all as active here as I once thought I would be when I signed up. It's not that the excitement necessarily wore off as much as it has just been that life has worn me down. There are many beautiful sets I have been planning to check out, as well as many others I'm not aware of yet. There are videos and...
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I'll keep this short and sweet. Thanks to many of you out there, even if you don't see this:
Though you are Suicide in name, your kindness has done much to keep me from it.
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apropoetic:
@ekka So far things seem to be getting worse without bothering you with the details. I really appreciate the sentiment though. I'll just have to trudge on and see what happens.
nebula:
I'm sorry to hear that. Hang in there <3
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apropoetic:
@Breeanna I do appreciate it...but I'm not sure I would know what a good vibe looked like even if it were ever somehow to find me. Don't give out all your good vibes, they are hard to come by and knowing this world...you are likely gonna need some for yourself if you wanna survive, let alone be happy.
onelove420:
Don't worry, I have plenty to share. :) I don't think into the future negatively, it only takes up space for happiness. Have you read or watched The Secret? It might help you get through whatever it is you are going through.