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apriloneil

Pittsburgh, PA

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Sunday Nov 27, 2011

Nov 27, 2011
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I don't even know what to do. I'm possibly losing the best thing to happen to my life. I don't want this to happen. It's just a waiting game. I don't know what I'll do if we can't work this out.



I don't usually like the pop artists nowadays, but this song is so how I feel right now.

I would do anything for him. I know this is going to take time, but there is nothing I dislike more than waiting for him to tell me one way or the other. If we fall apart I don't think I could get up.

I haven't had much to eat in the past couple days. Yesterday, nothing but a chai that lasted like 10 hours and a cup of tea before bed, which I didn't finish. Today a half of a turkey sandwich that one of my managers practically forced me to eat. I keep feeling like I'm going to throw up, but there isn't anything in my stomach. I've bought a pack of cigarettes, I haven't really smoked in at least a year if not more. I have to go to work because it gives me something to do and try and keep my mind off of all of this.

It's all my fault. I knew that I would ruin this.

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