Okay. Let's see. What happened?
I got sick of doing interviews eventually, though it took a few months. I yelled, "Fuck it!" and started my own company. The first few months were slow, and I accumulated a decent credit card balance (though nothing outrageous). I kept getting great meetings with top notch clients (Kaiser Permanente, Genentech, etc.), and they would love me. But somehow, the projects always fell through. I managed to survive off of a single small client for 4 months; a little specialty shop in San Rafael, CA that sells high end saw blades and router bits to top-notch cabinet makers and the most discerning private hobbyists. They wanted to create an online presence, but they could only afford me in small pieces.
They fed me enough work to occupy 5-10 hours a week, and while it didn't pay many bills, it was good. I found myself isolated in my house in the woods for long periods of time, without the resources to go out and without people with whom I wanted to interact. I was bored with the world. I forced myself to push through the loneliness, through self-frustration, and through sexual anxiety. My identity is fragmented, and I manage to change up the milieu in which I am suspended every 6 months or so; I was not trying to "find myself" through isolation. This story does not end with a profound realization of my own nature or my place in the universe. Instead, I was bored, disgusted, and needed a radical and painful way to reassure myself that I am not going to become risk averse as the years start to slide by faster.
My current monthly income is more than %300 of my former salary. I have more work than I can handle, and I am in the processing of hiring a small team. I recently threw a party attended by three single men (myself included) and 38 attractive, international women. Everybody had a wonderful time. I have no idea how long this will last, but it doesn't really matter. My life experience has been a collage of sharply contrasting panels, and I like the rush.
I got sick of doing interviews eventually, though it took a few months. I yelled, "Fuck it!" and started my own company. The first few months were slow, and I accumulated a decent credit card balance (though nothing outrageous). I kept getting great meetings with top notch clients (Kaiser Permanente, Genentech, etc.), and they would love me. But somehow, the projects always fell through. I managed to survive off of a single small client for 4 months; a little specialty shop in San Rafael, CA that sells high end saw blades and router bits to top-notch cabinet makers and the most discerning private hobbyists. They wanted to create an online presence, but they could only afford me in small pieces.
They fed me enough work to occupy 5-10 hours a week, and while it didn't pay many bills, it was good. I found myself isolated in my house in the woods for long periods of time, without the resources to go out and without people with whom I wanted to interact. I was bored with the world. I forced myself to push through the loneliness, through self-frustration, and through sexual anxiety. My identity is fragmented, and I manage to change up the milieu in which I am suspended every 6 months or so; I was not trying to "find myself" through isolation. This story does not end with a profound realization of my own nature or my place in the universe. Instead, I was bored, disgusted, and needed a radical and painful way to reassure myself that I am not going to become risk averse as the years start to slide by faster.
My current monthly income is more than %300 of my former salary. I have more work than I can handle, and I am in the processing of hiring a small team. I recently threw a party attended by three single men (myself included) and 38 attractive, international women. Everybody had a wonderful time. I have no idea how long this will last, but it doesn't really matter. My life experience has been a collage of sharply contrasting panels, and I like the rush.
yummy:
Thanks for the comment ^_^ I'm an international relations major with a political science focus right now, and I concentrate on East Asia, so I try to keep pretty up to date about that kind of stuff.