apontes29

im not an angry person generally.....a tad bit negative....but a nice person....i like to think anyway...i believe in karma for the most part, and i like being nice to people.....it makes me feel good i think...

......but everytime i think of her i feel so burned and hatefull.....i wish death upon the whole damn world....i think of her and i get ill........not because of her, but because of what she did to me.....i get ill because of how i trusted her with my soul.....my heart. i dont like to sleep anymore because i still dream about her.... like today.....i dreamt about her and in the dream she betrayed me all over again....my faith and trust where decieved...my heart shattered once more...

friday is my second court date......tomorrow is the last mail day before that court date.........if i dont get the letter from her saying that it is she who wanted the divorce, then the divore wont go through...she knew about needing the letter last tuesday....youd think that if she truly wanted to make sure i was out of her life then she would have overnighted the damn thing....but no............i still havent gotten the letter....i feel like she is fucking with my head..........taunting me............well if i dont get the letter tomorrow then fuck it.......i will let her file for divorce......cause im fucking through with this shit.....

........now im horribly depressed again....arrr