.........ow. my head hurts. to recap today.... i dont sleep at night. i got a job, i start thursday....i had a dream that my ex and i got back together... then i woke up and was sad....so i went back to sleep and proceeded to sleep the actual day away...woke up sometime around 7 in the evening...showered and went to chilis to visit alexandria....came home and vegged out.....went to endzones and had a couple of smirnoffs.....then alex came over to my place where we stayed up the entire night talking about shit....im still very confused inside..but we did get nachos from 711 and then drove around listening to tom petty and fiona apple....not toghter mind you, we changed the cd in the player...so now its daybreak and im debating whether or not to actually sleep abit....i should just stay up....i hate crying......i hate the fact that i still can cry....it feels like i should be beyond crying...like i should be a robot or somthing.........whatever...its a new week right?....