aponia

I called my dad this morning. He was on his way to the hospital. He didn't know if she was switched out of ICU yet. So as far as I know, she's still in intensive care.

I think this is the hardest part of her being in the hospital. The waiting. Not knowing what is going on or what they're doing. If I was in the hospital I could find out, but right now I'm miles and miles away. I don't know anything.

I wish I could pickup the phone and call her.....I can't even explain how troubling it is to me to not be able to.

So work feels slow and painful...every minute are filled with thoughts of what if.

I finally have my own office, what I wanted for the longest time, but its making me feel lonely. I don't want to be left alone with my thoughts.

Thanks for the kind thoughts everybody. It really does keep me hopes up. Everytime I want to give up and just go catatonic I think about all the people who have me and my mom in their thoughts and prayers...it keeps me waking up and getting dressed every morning.

I just hope i'm strong enough to deal with whats ahead.