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Thank you for all the thoughts and virtual hand holding. I can't even describe what it all means to me.

She was sleeping when I called this morning. I feel terrible when I wake her up. I'm not sure whats going on. I don't know how long she'll be in the hospital and I don't know what state her bodies in. I think I may take some time off next week to visit, and maybe go up on Sunday. I just hate not knowing anything.

I can't believe what happened in London. It really makes me sick. I don't care what your position is, innocents never deserve to die. And these were just normal people, taking their normal route to work or school, and all of a sudden their lives changed forever. I can't even imagine it. I'll definately have all of those people and their families in my thoughts.

Its hard to have a positive view on the world when things like that happen. How can someone do that to another person? How can you kill someone you don't even know? I have lost faith in a higher power after my mom got sick, and this has just made it worse. If god was this caring deity, why would he let so many innocent people go through all of this hell?

I need a hand to hold, I need a shoulder to cry on. I need someone to tell me it will all be ok, even if thats not true.

This sadness is just so heavy....